CH 14

''You can always come to find me.''

This short sentence hovered in Jian Xingsui's ear like a spell and fell on the tip of his heart like a heavy hammer.

He raised his head in disbelief and met Fu Jinxiao's face. He saw the man sitting there with dark and deep eyes. When he was looked at, he felt that he was valued.

Jian Xingsui was nervous. He was afraid of Fu Jinxiao's misunderstanding, so he said: "Xingchen didn't bully me, you(polite), don't think too much about this. We were just kidding. You also know his temper. In fact, there is nothing bad about it. I didn't say anything when you entered the door at that time, because..."

Fu Jinxiao nodded lightly, and he said warmly: "I know. It's because you were afraid of affecting my relationship with him. You didn't want it to make things difficult for me."

Jian Xingsui was stunned.

Obviously, he hadn't said anything yet, but Fu Jinxiao understood everything he meant.1

This feeling was really amazing. It was like countless times when he stood in front of the Jian family or An Ran and others, no matter how he explained, no one believed him, and no one wanted to hear him finish.

But Fu Jinxiao just sat there quietly, listening to his stumbling explanation, and understood his heart so smoothly. He didn't need to explain too much and the other party didn't even misunderstand him.

"I know." Fu Jinxiao looked at him and curled his lips: "I can rest assured now that he has a roommate like you by his side."

This man's strictness at work was really severe while gentleness in private conversations was really gentle.

Jian Xingsui wanted to say something at first, but he swallowed the words again. He lowered his head, but his nose was slightly sour. He had endured it for too long, and suddenly he was understood. The first reaction was that he was at a loss.

However, Fu Jinxiao seemed to see through his fragile soul under his ill-spoken words and did not embarrass him: "Okay, it's getting late. Go back ba, unless you want to work as a security guard?"

Jian Xingsui was embarrassed, so he bowed: "Okay, Brother Fu, I'm going back."

Fu Jinxiao responded lightly, "Yeah."

Jian Xingsui turned around to leave, but heard the man say, "Wait."

Jian Xingsui looked back suspiciously.

"You sang well today." Fu Jinxiao was no longer sitting lazily, but looked directly at him: "Next time, keep trying."

It was obviously just an ordinary sentence. But when it fell into Jian Xingsui's ears, his heart seemed to shrink with joy at that moment. He was praised..................he was recognized..............what's more, he was recognized by his idol.

Jian Xingsui actually had felt that he could not pass the first audition because he had no background and no support. The most important reason was that the Jian family might feel that he was bullying An Ran after seeing it. A person like himself could be easily replaced by the show team just based on the Jian family members' one call. So he knew that he would not go far.

But Fu Jinxiao's approval seemed to have suddenly given him a little hope and confidence.

"Well, I will try my best." Jian Xingsui said softly and he smiled at Fu Jinxiao: "Thank you, Brother Fu."

Fu Jinxiao raised his eyebrows slightly.

He had always seen this kid have a straight face before. He didn't know if the kid himself knew that. He was obviously young but his brows were always slightly wrinkled as if he was always vigilant. He looked preoccupied at all times, like a frightened little hedgehog, ready to hide at any time. It was probably because of this that people would unconsciously pay more attention to this kid.

He laughed at this moment. Just because of a casual encouragement from himself, he actually looked pretty when he smiled. Although he had a short haircut, his lips were red and his teeth were white always carrying a shy smile. There always seemed to be light in his eyes. And it was at this moment that he looked like a young man of his age, not a little old man with a heavy heart.

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On the second day,

This was the second day of the first round of recording.

Because of the popularity on the first day, the number of people in the live broadcast room did not drop but increased, and the popularity of the show had become very high.

This time it was really Shen Xingchen's turn to perform. Don't look at the fact that this young master looked a little unreliable on ordinary days, like a son of a noble family, but he was actually really skilled. His singing and dancing skills were very nice, and his expressiveness on the stage was also very strong. He had really worked hard and had real talent.

Almost all the mentors were very satisfied and the ratings they gave were of course not low. After unanimous discussion, they gave a high score of A, and all the contestants, including the audience, had too much to comment:

"Little brother is very sassy"

"He's really amazing!"

"Seeing his dance makes my blood boil."

"This brother really has a lot of energy, so energetic!"

Jian Xingsui waited for Shen Xingchen to come back and said sincerely, "Your performance was outstanding, you are too skilled."

Shen Xingchen's forehead was covered in sweat. The young man was of course very proud after hearing this comment, but he still wanted to brag in front of his younger brother: "It's normal, I just performed normally."

Jian Xingsui pursed his lips and smiled.

Shen Xingchen noticed that there was a row of people sitting not far from their row, and one of them was Zhou Xun. For some unknown reason, Zhou Xun always looked at them with a sneaky look.

Shen Xingchen's violent temper came up: "Fuck, what is that kid looking at?"

Jian Xingsui tried to calm him down: "It's alright, just ignore him."

"What are you afraid of?" Shen Xingchen glared at him and muttered, "It's a shame that we're in front of a camera, otherwise I would have cleaned him up."

Jian Xingsui didn't know whether to laugh or cry.

Sometimes, he thinks that Shen Xingchen's temper was somewhat similar to his own. To be precise, his former temper was somewhat similar.3

By the afternoon, more than 100 contestants had already finished the audition. What everyone didn't expect was that just when everyone thought the recording would end, the host stood up and started to announce something new: "Because many of the contestants got relatively low grades in the first round, many people may have felt that they didn't perform well. Maybe now you guys have new ideas and ways you want to perform with. It's okay. That's quite understandable. So now let's announce the new rules. It is also what everyone is most looking forward to watch, right. Do you know what it is? "

The scene was silent for a while before someone shouted, "Battle(originally in English)!"

More and more people shouted out with some excitement: "Battle, battle, start the battle!"

It used to be group and individual performances, but now the new rules were definitely a duel challenge between contestants and contestants. Mr. Li also showed a mysterious smile: "Yes, let me announce the rules of this battle. Now, starting from Group F, a representative from Group F will be recommended by the contestants. This representative can freely choose a member of Group C who he thinks he can challenge. If the challenge is successful, the player can successfully advance to D. If a player in Group C can keep his place, at the same time, he has a chance to be re-rated. "

This was the challenge.

If you choose a player who you can challenge successfully, then you will have a chance to be re-rated.

Teacher Li smiled and said, "At the same time, after this battle is over, all the students who have succeeded in the challenge will become the center of the theme song of "Starlight" together with the members of Class A!"

There was an uproar in the audience.

Especially contestants from F grade were very excited. They were internally having a heated discussion about how to gain benefits from this great opportunity.

Wen Shengge's rating was C. He was on the same level as Jian Xingsui. He came over and whispered: "Brother Jian, do you think the people in Group F will choose to challenge us here?"

Jian Xingsui shook his head: "I don't know."

"If I'll lose the battle, I will fall into Group F!" Wen Shengge was a little scared: "I really want to pray now that I don't get selected."

Jian Xingsui didn't have much thought.

First, he felt that he had no sense of existence, and secondly, even if he fell to F, it meant nothing to him.

Shen Xingchen leaned over and sneered: "Okay okay, don't worry about it. Those people will not choose you if they think you have any potential. Of course, if you're not capable, then keep being afraid!!!"

Jian Xingsui: "..."

You really know how to comfort people ah brother.

Just as everyone was talking, the representative recommended by Group F came out. It was somehow an unexpected candidate - Zhou Xun.

Zhou Xun, who came to the stage, gave a speech. In general, he meant that he didn't perform well in the first round. This time, he is ashamed and will prove himself. He was a rap-majored contestant and of course, he was going to perform a rap this time.

Teacher Li asked, "Who is the contestant of Group C you want to challenge?"

Zhou Xun's eyes fell on the people in Group C. After turning around, he said firmly, "Jian Xingsui."

After the name was spit out, some people felt surprised while some people thought it was expected. Jian Xingsui himself was a little helpless, while Shen Xingchen next to him sneered a few times, full of sarcasm.

Teacher Li said with a smile: "Before the group F players perform, I want to announce another additional rule we have this time. For example, if Jian Xingsui will successfully takes up the challenge, then you will get a chance to be re-rated and you will also have a chance to become the center of our theme song this time. Because the rewards are generous, we also have a rule that the contestants who accept the challenge, for example, if they want to sing the same song as the challenger, will have 20 minutes of preparation time in the middle."

Logically speaking, this rule was not particularly difficult.

But the problem was that Zhou Xun was a rap singer and the songs he chose only had rap from the first verse to last. It was very difficult for Jian Xingsui, who was not a rap singer, to learn a rap song in 20 minutes.

Teacher Li added: "Of course, the contestants have the right to choose whether to accept the challenge or not."

At this moment, almost everyone's eyes fell on Jian Xingsui.

The audience was also very much looking forward to his answer:

"Brother buzz cut, finish that challenger!"

"Don't be cowardly!"

"Challenge him back!"

The other players felt that it was really difficult for Jian Xingsui. It turns out that getting delicious rewards was not so easy. Isn't it just the trick of the program team to send C graders to the pit? This way F graders will be able to choose from whatever they are good at and use that against the C graders. The difficulty was really great. Competing with Zhou Xun, especially Jian Xingsui, who had never studied rap professionally, will definitely suffer. It will be miserable for him to drop directly from C to F at that time.

Everyone was looking at Jian Xingsui, but Jian Xingsui quietly set his eyes on the mentor's platform, where the man sitting in the center was leaning on the chair, seemingly careless. But once the guy sitting in the audience glanced at him, Fu Jinxiao also lifted his eyelids and looked straight at him. Their eyes were looking straight at each other. At this moment silence was better than sound.

Not long ago, on this stage, he had also taught Jian Xingsui to face everyone's challenges with courage and not to be afraid of losing, but Jian Xingsui, who was reborn once and suffered losses, was always cautious and did not have that kind of courage.

Behind him came the shrill voices of other contestants discussing:

"He doesn't dare?"

"Isn't this inevitable?"

"Hahaha, he was lucky to get C before, but now we're gonna his true ability."

Those small voices were very similar to the voices of those who had once humiliated him and insulted him behind his back. A long time ago, it was also because of this kind of discussion that Jian Xingsui had began to doubt himself. It was because of these kinds of comments that he had started to feel sensitive and inferior. He was desperately in the need of some warmth and encouragement.......a little bit............. a very little bit of it would also have been enough. 

There are wounds that never show on the body but are deeper and more hurtful than anything that bleeds.

At that time, when he was trapped in the prison of depression, he had come into contact with Fu Jinxiao's songs and his works by chance which had allowed him to adjust and slowly gain some courage and strength.

Was he ready to face this challenge?

Maybe he won't win, and since the difficulty is so high, he might even lose face.

But if he would just give up here, did that mean he won? Everyone was only giving him disappointed and mocking glances now.

However, what he saw in Fu Jinxiao's eyes was not a mocking look but a quiet depth. That person was just sitting there quietly, but his eyes had something that told him, ''DON'T GIVE UP. THERE'S ALREADY NOTHING LEFT FOR YOU TO LOSE. EVEN IF YOU LOSE, SO WHAT?''+

(T/N: Fu Jinxiao meant: So what even if you lose? I'm always there for you. Just show everyone you are my fan and Fu JinXiao's man.)

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