CH 156

The floor was littered with corpses after the intense battle. After taking a short break, Pei Ran sat back in the driver’s seat and pumped himself up to start the car. He recalled that Leng Feng had said that the southern base should not be far from here, that if they were quick enough, it would only take about half a day to get there.   

The road was long and dark. Borrowing the light from the car, they could see zombies scattered along the trail. Their eyes looked extremely frightening under the light and a few times Pei Ran was very tempted to just run them over, but then those zombies would scatter apart, screaming incoherently as they wandered off somewhere else and let him through.

Sitting in the passenger seat, Qu Yan was very calm as he looked out the window. When the car had driven a fair distance away, he quietly closed his right hand, and with no eyes upon the scene, all zombies wandering by the road suddenly froze and then exploded into bits and pieces of flesh.

The explosion didn’t make much noise, and with the sound of the car engine and tires on the road, none of that transmitted through into the car.

Qu Yan’s eyelashes were quite long and when he narrowed or squinted his eyes slightly, they became a long line. When his eyes were open however, paired with the reflection of the lights of the car, his eyes looked so dark, like the endless abyss, yet it was also a frighteningly bright existence.

Pei Ran lowered the window to get some fresh air. Although the temperature at night was a bit freezing cold, he had nothing else to do, and he began to start up random conversations with Qu Yan on all sorts of topics, on the little things of life. 

Pei Ran asked, 

“Have you always placed first in exams when you were at school?”

By instinct, he could sense that Qu Yan did not have the best of childhoods and avoided the sensitive topic of family.

Qu Yan’s eyes were lowered, and whatever he was thinking then, one hand rested upon Pei Ran’s right leg. Then, as if he was playing a piano, his fingers started to lightly tap. After a while, he casually let out a “hmm”.

He probably thought that being top ranked in exams was no big deal; it wouldn’t have lessened any of the pain he experienced.

“That’s quite amazing,” Pei Ran then asked, “then…… what do you like to eat? What do you like to do?”

Qu Yan looked lost at his words. He tried hard to think back to his youth, going through his blank white memory to find an answer to hand over to Pei Ran. But unfortunately, however hard he tried, he couldn’t grasp anything.

Beginning with his birth, he had never learned what it meant to like something and instead began to hate this world.

After waiting a long time without getting a response, Pei Ran gave him a curious look, 

“Nothing?”

“There is……”

The end of his words were elongated, creating an inexplicable and ambiguous atmosphere. Qu Yan leaned closer to Pei Ran and lightly whispered into his ear, 

“But I won’t tell you hmm.”

Not saying meant no answer. Pei Ran had not missed Qu Yan’s long silence and contemplation just now. When the first ray of light broke through the heavy layer of clouds, clearing up the view in front of their eyes, only then did Pei Ran quietly say, 

“To be a human, hmm, requires you to have something you like.”

Pei Ran said, 

“There must be, as only then would there be a reason to keep living.”