73 Divorce

When Lei Zhao woke up the next morning, he had a terrible headache. Groaning he rubbed his temples and hunched his brows together as he got down from the bed. He really regrets drinking last night.

"Lei Zhao?" Yan Mei called him as she rubbed her sleepy eyes. She remembers that Lei Zhao had brought her to the room last night.

"I didn't mean to wake you up," He said hoarsely. From his voice, Yan Mei could see he was having a hangover.

"Are you okay?" She asked knowing very well that he wasn't.

Lei Zhao's lips curved into a small smile. 

"Yeah, I'm good. I'm just going to prepare you breakfast since you've to go to work today." He said sounding tired. 

Yan Mei bit her lips, "I'm sorry about yesterday." She mumbled.

Lei Zhao shook his head and squeezed between his brows.

"No, I should be the one apologizing. It's was immature of me to come home late and drunk. We should've just talked about it like mature a.d.u.l.ts. I know you don't want to tell me what's wrong but I hope you can tell me when you're ready to talk about it."

Yan Mei's stomach churned with guilt and apprehension. 'God, why was he so understanding?'

"I'm just going to wash my face and prepare you, breakfast, okay?"

Yan Mei swallowed the lump in her throat, "Lei Zhao wait."

She croaked out. Lei Zhao turned to look at her and saw her sitting up and staring at her legs.

"What's wrong?" Lei Zhao asked with concern laced in his voice. He walked over to her and placed his hands on her shoulders.

"Are you alright?"

Yan Mei shook her head slowly and raised her head up, darting her eyes across the room.

Lei Zhao sighed and pulled her into his arms hugging her tightly.

Yan Mei closed her eyes and took a deep breath as she remembered the scars and memories of her past. She knew he needed to know the truth.

"I'm sorry Lei Zhao; I shouldn't have hidden the truth from you."

"Truth?"

"I-you remember I told you, I got hit by a car and lost my baby?" She croaked out as she blinked away the tears that were threatening to fall.

Lei Zhao released her from his arms and raised her chin so they could be at eye level.

"Yes, I remember."

Yan Mei bit her lips and played with her fingers nervously.

"I didn't tell you everything."

Lei Zhao raised his brows when he heard her.

"I didn't just lose my baby that night I lost the possibility of being a complete woman."

Taking a deep breath, she continued.

"I'm sorry Lei Zhao, but the possibility of me being a mother is really low. When I woke up from my coma, I realized that I had lost my child and the ability to ever be a mother. I was devastated. I couldn't believe it. I felt like nothing, just a mere empty shell of a woman. In the blink of the eye; my life had become something I never thought it would be. " She fidgeted as she said.

"When I woke up in the hospital after the car hit; I realized I had been in a coma for three months. Fortunately , someone had taken pity on me laying on the road and brought me to the hospital but the damage was ready done. My father tried to find doctors to help me but I refused the treatments. I didn't want to get my hopes up high again."

Lei Zhao kissed the top of her to comfort her. Neither of them said a word for a couple of minutes. Yan Mei felt safe with him that she didn't want to let go of him.

"I know, Wifey. I found out a couple of days ago."

Lei Zhao said as he wiped away her tears with his thumb and caressed her cheeks gently.

"Oh- I- I- know I shouldn't have hidden the truth from you if you want to- divorce me I- understand." Yan Mei whispered lowly as tears pricked her eyes.

Lei Zhao furrowed his brows.

"Why would I divorce you?" He questioned.

Yan Mei raised her head and met his eye glistening with an unknown light.

"Ah?" Yan Mei didn't know what to say. She had imagined different reactions when she tells him the possibility of him being a father was low but she never thought he would be this calm.

Lei Zhao heaved a sigh, "Don't tell me you were in a bad mood last night because you thought I would divorce you?"

Yan Mei opened her mouth and closed it again. Embarrassed she nodded.

Frustration crinkled his eyes, "Why would you think that?"

"I don't know but I thought once your family finds out; they would pressure you to leave me. They wouldn't want a woman who can't give birth to stay with their son. Also, you promised Grandpa to give him a grandson by the end of the year." 

"I'm I doing something wrong that? Is that why you're insecure in this relationship?" Lei Zhao c.o.c.ked his head as he muttered. He wasn't sure if he wanted to hear the answer but he needed to know.

"No-No, it's not you. It's me. The traumatic experience I had makes me insecure about certain things. Also, I was afraid you would leave me once you know the truth. Don't leave me, Lei Zhao"

Yan Mei pleaded as she burst into silent tears. Lei Zhao held his arms out and pulled her in his arms again. Yan Mei clung unto him as if she was afraid he would leave. 

"I'm not going to leave you! I meant what I said last night. I want to grow old with you." Lei Zhao spoke gently as he raked his fingers slowly in her hair.

"When you fainted last time, I called a doctor to check up on you. He told me about your condition."

Yan Mei stiffened.

"I was waiting for your period to end so that, we can start treatment. Don't worry Wifey, He promised me you would be able to get pregnant as long as you take the medicine."

Yan Mei pulled away from him and asked excitedly, "Really?"

Lei Zhao nodded with a soft smile tugging on his lips.

"Yeah. Also, we can always adopt a baby if you want. I don't care as long as you're happy."

A smile tugged at the corners of her lips.

"Lei Zhao" Yan Mei called his name.

"Hmm?"

"Have I told you, you're the best husband any woman could wish for?"

Lei Zhao narrowed his eyes as if he was thinking.

"You don't have to tell me, I know." He said as he winked at her.

Yan Mei pouted and rolled her eyes. "Narcissist are we?"

Lei Zhao chuckled, "Of course." 

Yan Mei shook her head helplessly. And just like that, they were back to the sweet-loving couples they were.

Yan Mei realized the importance of communication in her relationship for the first time. If she had let her fears gotten the best part of her; she would have lost Lei Zhao by refusing to tell him the truth and let her assumptions manipulate her decision.

For the first time, she was grateful for the bad things that happened to her. If it hadn't she wouldn't have met Lei Zhao and found a loving family like his parents.