CH 120

Evan walked out of the luxurious castle, and when he breathed the air outside, he felt relaxed instantly.

Evan walked to the Duke’s carriage, but he had no intention of getting into the carriage at all. He walked straight past the carriage and strode towards the distance.

Some kind of emotion swelled in his chest, which made his whole body tremble with excitement.

He actually did such a thing.

Evan clenched his fists tightly. He didn’t know whether he was more regretful or more excited. In fact, he never thought about it before expressing his emotions, but when things happened, he really did it.

Maybe he was tired of his usual disguise, maybe the Duke’s feelings for him were so real that he couldn’t help feeling guilty.

He has been pretending for so long and even he has some doubts, whether the present him is real now, the mask seems to have merged with himself, and he felt panic. Is the real or fake him the real one? Which one is the real him?

And now…Evan looked at the road ahead, the icy cold wind made his face tingle, but his heart was full of fire. He finally took this step. He was feeling very excited, as if he had unloaded a heavy burden and his whole body was much more relaxed.

Evan walked along the forest path towards the Church of Delanlier. He couldn’t guess what the Duke was thinking at this time and he couldn’t know how the Duke would react, but he really did that because his heart has been telling him that he must let the Duke know the truth.

Such an idea has always existed in Evan’s subconscious mind, but it wasn’t until today that he finally took this step.

Evan stepped on the frosty ground, full of thoughts in his mind, but at this moment, the sound of a carriage came from behind him. Evan looked back, only to find that it was Duke Wilson’s carriage that was coming.

Evan frowned slightly and clenched his fists, feeling nervous.

He knew that he would never be able to outrun the carriage, so he stopped along the way and looked at the direction of the carriage.

The Duke’s carriage quickly caught up and stopped beside Evan.

Evan looked at the black door of the carriage, his heart had already reached his throat as he clenched his fist tightly, with complicated emotions in his heart.

The carriage door was pushed open by a slender and powerful hand and the Duke’s anxious face appeared from behind the door. He leaned out most of his body to look at Evan and said anxiously, “Why didn’t you wait until I leave first? The weather is so cold, aren’t you afraid of typhoid fever? Come up quickly.”

Regarding the Duke’s words, Evan felt a little surprised for a moment, he thought that after what happened at Colonel Mel’s house, he would…

Could it be that he didn’t see the difference?

Evan shook his head secretly. It was impossible. He was very sure that the Duke had definitely discovered his difference as his expression at that time was a bit intriguing.

Evan looked straight at Duke Wilson, neither getting into the carriage nor speaking.

Seeing Evan like this, Duke Wilson just sighed and said in a low voice, “Are you angry with me? I’m sorry, Evan, I didn’t know that Mel would be such a person to frame you like this.” At this point, his expression suddenly became serious, and he said in a deep voice, “But don’t worry, I will definitely not let you suffer in vain, and I will make Mel pay the price.”

Evan frowned, what does he mean? Does he want to turn a blind eye? He didn’t think the Duke would be the type of person who would rather deceive himself.

“You…” Evan pondered for a moment and finally opened his mouth.

But Duke Wilson immediately interrupted his words, and said in a brisk tone, “Don’t be angry, okay? Get in the carriage, it’s really cold outside.” Evan looked at Duke Wilson with a complicated expression, and for a while he didn’t know what to say, he couldn’t laugh or cry in his heart, he didn’t know whether he should sympathize with Duke Wilson’s self-deception or reflect on what he had done.

Evan sighed in his heart, he lowered his head slightly and replied in a low voice, “I understand, but I want to go back to the church now,”

His words were equivalent to a compromise, which made Duke Wilson’s tense heart loosen.

“Okay, okay, if you want to go back to the church, we’ll go back to the church.”

As if he was afraid that Evan would change his mind, he stretched out his hand, grabbed Evan’s arm, pulled him into the carriage and then hugged him.

The coachman continued to drive the carriage, as if he hadn’t seen anything, towards the Church of Delanlier.

In the warm carriage, Duke Wilson was half leaning on Evan’s shoulder, and his whole body was close to Evan’s, smelling each other’s scent and there seemed to be an ambiguous atmosphere in the air, but only Evan knew that he was really calm. He couldn’t understand what Duke Wilson was doing, because he was very sure that Duke Wilson’s affection for him at first, was only based on the illusion he showed him, but now…now he has completely exposed the illusion he created. But Duke Wilson is still trying to keep this illusion.

Evan lowered his head and looked at the back of Duke Wilson’s neck. That piece of snow-white skin shone brightly in his eyes, and his eyes stung a little. Evan closed his eyes as his thoughts drifted. He did not know how many times the duke was sucked by himself, and every time he sucked, Duke Wilson would blush and moan softly.

He has always loved his performance so much, but looking at it now, he only feels heavy, as if those happy times they had were all stolen by himself. The man, whom the duke loves, is not really himself.

“Charles.” Evan caressed his back, and whispered, “You saw that, right?”

Now that he has spoken up, he can no longer bear to act as another person and with the way he and Duke Wilson have been getting along intimately, this matter must be said, but he does not need to elaborate, because according to Duke Wilson’s wisdom, he should have understood already.

After Evan said such words, the body in his arms trembled.

Evan’s heart moved and he hugged the person in his arms tightly.

“I know you understand.” He pursed his dry lips, “I will only say some things once now and no matter what decision you make, I will not have any complaints, do you want to listen?” Pressing his lips against Duke Wilson’s ear, he whispered.

Duke Wilson wrapped his arms around Evan’s neck and buried his face on Evan’s shoulders. He gritted his teeth, as if he was enduring some kind of great pain and he didn’t respond for a long time.

“If you don’t want to listen, then I won’t say anything.” Evan felt a little disappointed in his heart and stretched out his hand to push Duke Wilson away from him.

But before his hand touched Duke Wilson’s body, the Duke spoke.

“Go ahead.” His voice trembled slightly, sounding more hoarse than usual.

Evan felt his heart tremble slightly after hearing this and the originally sour emotion spread from the top of his heart to the bottom of his heart.

He lowered his head and kissed the snow-white skin that he had coveted for a long time. His slightly cold lips made Duke Wilson tremble slightly.

The corner of Evan’s mouth hooked up slightly and he buried his face into Duke Wilson’s neck.

“Charles, what I want to say is that I really love you. I am afraid that no one in this world can make me have such strong feelings. No matter what I have done or what I will do, my feelings for you are always there. It is real at this moment, and what I feel for you is from the bottom of my heart, whether you believe it or not, this is what I really feel in my heart. I was ashamed to express it in the past, but at this moment, I think it is necessary for me to let you know this, otherwise I’m afraid I’ll regret it for the rest of my life.”

Evan’s voice was muffled but it carried a shocking force. Duke Wilson trembled, and Evan felt it. The feelings in his heart were even more complicated and unspeakable. The only thing he could do was to hug him even harder.

It’s just that he couldn’t see that at this time, Duke Wilson’s originally dark eyes had turned blood red at this moment, like some kind of bloodthirsty creature, with a frightening look of desire in it. He opened his mouth and bit gently on Evan’s neck. The slight stinging pain only made Evan blink, but there was a look of satisfaction in Duke Wilson’s eyes.

Duke Wilson’s heart was beating violently, Fortunately you said that, if you didn’t say that, I really don’t know what I would do.

Duke Wilson sucked on that piece of skin greedily, as if he was really sucking on some sacred object, with an inextricable obsession in his expression.

For this person in front of him, he may have been confused by the dazzling light on him at first, but as time passed, he found that his feelings for him had reached a depth that outsiders could not comprehend, and what he wanted was no longer that fleeting warmth, but the real him, with this mixture of indifference and tenderness, kindness and cunning.

In fact, he had already noticed the indifference under his gentle appearance, but maybe it was this indifference that made him feel even more infatuated. He fantasized that he could break the ice and obtain his most sincere tenderness, and now…now, he finally got it.

A bloodthirsty smile appeared on the lips of Duke Wilson. Evan has never seen what the heaviest crime in the world is, so he would not understand that what he did was really nothing to him.

The carriage was still driving towards the church while the people in the carriage hugged each other with lingering emotions. The atmosphere in the carriage was also extremely gentle. Evan felt nothing but peace in his heart at this moment. Everything unfolded before the eyes of Duke Wilson and the last barrier between them was gone, he could finally accept his feelings with peace of mind.

Although it was a long way from Colonel Mel’s manor to the Church of Delanlier, no matter how long the journey was, they finally arrived at the church before lunch time. Duke Wilson reluctantly let Evan go. After getting off the carriage, he stared straight at Evan with his slightly red eyes, and told him in a low voice, “I’ll come pick you up tomorrow.”

Evan was a little surprised, but thinking about his behavior today, he still nodded.

Duke Wilson pursed his lips, feeling very satisfied in his heart. He was very aware of Evan’s guilt towards him now, so taking advantage of this opportunity, he would not give up any chance.

Just as Duke Wilson was about to leave, Mrs Sanders came out in a hurry. Seeing Evan standing at the door, she hurriedly greeted him with a trace of anxiety on her face.

“Reverend Bruce.” Instead of saluting Duke Wilson, she said anxiously, “Your father is here.”

“What?” Evan frowned. At this moment, he finally remembered old Bruce’s letter and he couldn’t help feeling a little heavy in my heart.

But Mrs Sanders hadn’t finished speaking, and this sentence was a bit difficult to say.

“Besides, there is a lady who came with your father.”

Mrs Sanders said this with a little embarrassment, but the face of Duke Wilson, who was standing by the side, completely darkened.

T/N: Oh dear, old Bruce is here again, with a woman for Evan too, really bad timing

I really feel sorry for the old man, using a woman to pry the duke’s corner. Charles only hated you before, now he’ll just want to kill you, tsk tsk ‍️