~: a heavy message

   A heavy message

  I just received news suddenly that my grandpa passed away.

  I don't know what to say about my current mood, I only know that my hands are shaking.

  I live in Shenzhen, but my hometown is Shanxi. After graduation, I traveled more than 2,000 miles to come here, but now I haven’t even seen each other for the last time.

   This will be something that I will regret for the rest of my life, and I will regret it for the rest of my life.

   I just passed my 23rd birthday this year, but my life has experienced too many ups and downs and too many misfortunes.

  My father died at the age of four, and my mother and I were kicked out of the house by my biological grandfather.

  I lived with my grandparents since I was a child. My mother went out to work. I have no grandparents or father since I was a child. I don’t need to go into details about my relationship with my grandparents.

   Later growth is not something to be happy about, it is just as unfortunate.

   But I finally grew up, graduated, and wrote a book. Because of your support, I can earn a little money for this book.

  I thought, after finishing this book, I will go home and use my own money to make life better for my family.

  I thought about it, but my grandpa was gone.

  Perhaps life is like this, often not as happy as novels, always full of regrets.

  Maybe this is my fate, starting with misfortune, ending with misfortune, and running through it all.

  I'm going to book a plane ticket after typing this testimonial.

  I will try to keep updating.

  I will squeeze out time, adjust my thoughts, and code some out every day.

that's all.

  That’s all I want to say.

  (end of this chapter)