Chapter 110 My First Time Is With A Demon

"I don't... I don't know what to do! I'm so scared! I might lose everything here! All the empty promises I made, and all the bravado I pulled off... I can't deliver! I don't know what to do!"

Silence reigned as I stared at Lilith.

Exposing the ugly side of myself to this clueless Demon wasn't going to help me in the slightest.

She most likely didn't even have the answers to my problems.

Yet—

—Why did everything naturally flow out?

'Ahh... now I know why [Freedom Of Expression] isn't working...'

"Master..." Lilith rested on my throbbing body, causing me to lose balance and fall on the cold surface of the floor.

Thanks to my high Level, there was no damage, but I still felt the clash between my back and the hard ground.

Just as I was recoiling from the impact, I noticed the Demon Girl was atop me, lying on my body with hers.

'... Is this what I really want? Is this the natural state I desire?'

"...Master..." Lilith's voice furthered, now in a soft whisper.

She obviously didn't have any answer to my worry. Her mind couldn't process or fathom the kind of miracle I would need to pull off a victory.

But the way her eyes gleamed, and the soft smile played on her face... I felt like she could see through me completely.

As her lips parted, I felt myself becoming absolutely numb to everything—the worry and pain I felt.

It just felt like there was no one or nothing existing apart from me and her in the room.

"What are you doing, Lilith?" My voice called out to her as she remained on top of me, her hands on my chest.

Her blushing face drew closer to mine and I felt my heart race with every moment that passed.

Finally, she spoke.

"... Sleep with me."

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Of the millions of words a man can expect, there is but one that drives him insane the most. That is an invitation to sex.

~ A Random Quote

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"... E-eh—?!"

My brain melted once I heard Lilith's statement.

'No. I must have heard wrong. Clearly, she didn't mean—'

"Sleep with me, Master! Lilith knows Master is sad. Lilith wants to help Master. Lilith is also scared and lonely. So, Master... please sleep with Lilith." Her voice started rising as she placed her hand on her voluptuous chest.

I was flabbergasted, unable to word any intelligible sentence as I stared at the Demon Girl with confusion.

It still didn't dawn on me what she was implying. Perhaps it did, but my brain was too fried to respond.

However...

"W-why would you want that?"

... I just couldn't stay quiet.

I stared at her crimson eyes, waiting for an answer. As her gleaming irises shone, and her beautiful face glowed, Lilith gave the most charming smile I had ever seen.

"B-because... Lilith loves Master."

'U-uh? I don't understand...' My body felt hot for some reason, and my heart was beating faster than ever.

I was lost, yet focused on just the girl on top of me. Why was I so enthralled? Why was I losing control?

Sweat began popping from my pores, and my breathing became ragged. It was like... I was in a different world—a world where I had no control.

"Lilith won't leave Master. Lilith stay with Master..." Her words were like music to my ear, pulling me closer with every syllable.

"Y-you won't leave me...?" I didn't know when my voice croaked out.

It felt pathetic and utterly powerless. I felt so vulnerable, and tears were definitely coming out of my eyes.

Yet—

"... You'll be with me, despite everything? No matter what?"

—My heart yearned for more of her. I sought affirmation. I wanted her to draw closer to me. Why?

"Lilith won't leave Master..." As if she was reading my mind, she drew closer.

"Y-you won't...?" My insecurities surfaced, and she nodded in response.

I could feel my sweat, smell the stinging stench, but they seemed irrelevant. Slowly, her face drew closer to mine, and I felt mine loft up to hers

Before I knew it... our lips became one. We kissed.

My hands moved on their own, and I touched her back, drawing her closer to me. She didn't resist.

Rubbing the soft fabric of her attire, I could feel her soft skin hidden beneath her negligee.

Though that didn't last long.

Everything that night was a blur. I didn't know why I chose to let myself loose after trying so hard to keep it together.

People were counting on me, and the next day was definitely going to mark destruction. Yet... why was I occupied with fulfilling my desires.

'What are you doing, Sam?' My thought echoed as I carried Lilith while rising from the ground.

We kept kissing, and I was too mesmerized to notice when we reached the bed.

She remained on top as I plopped on the surface of the well-laid bed. Our lips were still one, and despite her sharp fangs, I never felt the slightest but of pain.

Just mesmerized ecstacy.

'Everyone is counting on you...' My thoughts faded as she disrobed.

Her perky breasts and erotic body reeled me in, and the last fraction of my common sense was lost.

The final thread of reason snapped, and I indulged in the forbidden fruit of ecstacy.

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Lilith remained on top for most of everything. Since I was inexperienced and lost in a daze throughout most of it, I could only enjoy the pleasure she gave me.

But it wasn't just the act itself that made the night wonderful. Her constant words that kept me awake, driving away the guilt I felt. Her smile, and her touch.

No words of undeserved praise or encouragements were heard. I was no longer pretending to be who I was not.

Not at all.

Everything that night felt natural—something I hadn't experienced since I came to this world.

It was a surreal experience, my first time. I lost it to the person I least imagined it to be with.

'I...' As the night went on and we embraced, I felt fulfilment and companionship.

Lilith and I had truly become one.

Closing my eyes in the arms of my enemy, turned slave, turned partner, I could only feel deep gratitude and attachment.

I smiled and closed my eyes, feeling myself drift into unconsciousness.

'... Thank you...'