If her hatred and pain surpassed her love for Bao Junyan, she would not choose him to torture his life.
"My child is not a continuation of evil! He is the crystallization of my love with Bao Junyan!"
"Okay, that's my mentality, not yours, but can you really have no grievances, no feelings, no conscience pain?" He just felt guilty when he was with Ouyang Xiaoxiao. It's overwhelming, let alone having children.
Yu Hansheng knew like Mu Huan that Ouyang Xiaoxiao was not wrong, she was innocent, she did nothing, she was the victim.
But... even so.
With her, he also has a deep, uncontrollable sense of guilt.
She is the daughter of the enemy!
As a child, if his parents gave birth to him and raised him, he would be very unfilial if he couldn't protect them until they grow old safely, but he still wants to be with the daughter of the enemy who killed them...
he……
That strong sense of guilt tortured him every day!
But he can accept this kind of torture, because it hurts and he can't be happy, so that he can still be with her.
But the child...the him at the beginning really couldn't accept it, and even now, he can't...don't know what to do.
He didn't believe that Mu Huan didn't have that kind of guilt. He didn't believe that she could really do it. She didn't feel anything in her heart. She could let go of that kind of guilt and be happy with Bao Junyan!
Even if she doesn't have the same mentality as him, she must be similar! She definitely felt as much guilt as he did!
Mu Huan didn't speak anymore, every sentence of Yu Hansheng was like a big knife, slashing fiercely at the protective net in her heart, causing those suppressed feelings of guilt to surge up.
guilt.
Yes!
All along, what she couldn't let go of the most was guilt.
Even though, when her father died, she was asked to stay with Bao Junyan, saying that his death was relief and happiness, but she still had a sense of guilt that she couldn't let go of...
It is already unfilial for her not to be able to kill her enemies, but she still...
It's just that she couldn't let go of Bao Junyan even more, so she chose him to suppress those guilt feelings.
But often the more oppressive something is, the more it loves to rebound, especially, like now, when someone hits her heart directly, soul-like torture!
The more he thought about it, the more Mu Huan couldn't control himself, picked up the wine glass on the table, and violently drank a few glasses.
Bao Junyan, who came over after finishing his work, heard their conversation just now, looked at Mu Huan who was drinking heavily, his eyes were deep and distressed...
He knew, knew, she couldn't let go of the guilt in her heart.
After all, who can let go of the hatred of killing his father?
Especially, when her father treated her like that before, she couldn't let go of her father and was so filial, not to mention, when she knew that her father actually loved her, she lost him forever.
Such pain, such hatred.
It is really impossible to cross.
He didn't speak, nor stepped forward, just like that, quietly watching Mu Huan drink.
He knew she had been trying so hard to hold back, and that she needed to relax, to let off steam.
Yu Hansheng looked at Mu Huan, and wanted to say something, but thinking of hurting her was also hurting herself, and they are both degenerates in the world, so why bother to step on the weakest pain point of the other party.
So, he didn't say anything else and concentrated on drinking.
The two of them drank until dawn, completely drunk and unconscious.
Bao Junyan carried the drunk Mu Huan back to the room.
