Chapter 14.4

Vi10-13 minutes 07.02.2021

Knock. Knock. Knock. Knock. Knock.

Jang Jaeyoung knocked on the door as the minute hand passed from 32 past to 33 past. Even Sangwoo was surprised by how the accuracy didn’t even deviate by one second.

Sangwoo stared at the door for a while, then took a deep breath and approached it. When he extended his fingers from a distance and opened the door lock, there was a mechanical sound followed by the release of the latch. The door immediately burst open and Jaeyoung entered. The force was so strong that Sangwoo unintentionally ended up backing away.

Before the door had even shut, Jaeyoung’s shoes had been cast aside, and the condom he was clutching onto with his hand had been strewn on the floor as well. He put the bottle of wine (an unbreakable kind) in his right hand down on the shoe rack and immediately sprang at Sangwoo.

Sangwoo, who had spent an hour calming his sexual desire to the minimum through mind control and similar methods, was more nervous than excited. Even if he had fully prepared mentally, he felt afraid of Jaeyoung, who was tightly wrapping around his chest and hugging his waist. He hadn’t cared that much prior to this, but at the moment, he was aware of Jaeyoung being both taller and bigger than himself.

Jaeyoung pushed Sangwoo against the wall, and also pressed his lips against every part of him: his lips, his cheeks, his nose, his forehead, his chin. As Jaeyoung seemed to be in a very precarious state, Sangwoo became just as uneasy. At least he smelled the scent of fresh toothpaste from his mouth, which made him feel a bit of relief.

Jaeyoung’s lips, which were biting into his lower lip, moved down to his chin and slipped down his neck. Sangwoo automatically cowered when he heard the sound of the licking tongue. The hands, which at some point had gone beneath his clothes and were fumbling around his back, pulled Sangwoo’s waist, tightly connecting their lower bodies. The moment when Sangwoo felt something too hard to be skin against his groin, he completely hardened. He was well-acquainted with the universal manner of foreplay and he had simulated it several times. He wasn’t lacking in theoretical studies either, but he was so nervous and frightened that he couldn’t move a single finger.

“Hey.”

“…”

“You really have tried it… with a guy… right?”

Jaeyoung licked Sangwoo’s neck without answering. Immediately after removing his lips for a second, the T-shirt that at some point rolled up to his chest, came off. While Sangwoo was feeling frustrated, Jaeyoung now blocked his lips. Earlier, he had done it for nine minutes, but it didn’t seem to have been enough. It was about time he got used to kissing him, but he was even confused about where to place his hands in this situation.

Throughout the kiss, Sangwoo was thinking that Jaeyoung was pushing his body forward bit by bit. He thought he had taken a step or two backwards, but before he knew it, the bed was behind him. Jaeyoung, who definitely had his eyes closed, naturally knocked Sangwoo down as if it were a judo technique. His stiff body became horizontal and his head hit the pillow, making the white ceiling visible.

‘The time has come.’

His body stiffened with anxiety. He wanted to stop his sex drive and everything. He felt disgraceful in taking his top off under the bright incandescent light, but the inconvenience of withdrawing his decision was too great.

‘It’ll be over after enduring for about ten minutes, I guess.’

Sangwoo told himself such things and closed his eyes tightly. Then, he could no longer feel the touch that had been groping around his body. Slightly looking up, he met Jaeyoung’s gaze. Jaeyoung’s eyes were slightly dazed as the day when they had been drinking.

“Why are you so calm? It’s different from before.”

“… It’s because I’m nervous.”

“Are you done preparing?”

“Now you ask.”

“It’s because I’m not in my right state of mind.”

“I’m ready. I’ve cleaned every inch of my body, so don’t worry. I also cut my nails, and…”

Jaeyoung tightly covered Sangwoo’s mouth with his palm.”

“Shush. You don’t explain such things.”

“Ommff mmmmfff.”

“I got it, so be quiet now.”

Lips filled the missing space beneath his hand. The only thought that came to his mind was fear. The sound of the silence breaking, Jaeyoung’s expression with his eyes closed and his furrowed forehead, his hands stroking his waist and neck, and the weight of his thighs pressed against him, all made Sangwoo nervous.

“What’s on your mind right now?” Jaeyoung said after briefly removing his lips from him.

Sangwoo gulped. How should he respond? His mind was filled with jumbling thoughts, with the process and the pleasure mechanisms of sexual intercourse, tips he had read on the Internet, safety rules, and disease prevention.

“Several thing…s.”

“Forget about theories. This is reality.” Jaeyoung said and kissed him again.

His hand, which continuously had been touching his ears, moved down his neck, his collarbones, and his neck. His thumb pressed down on the useless bump, which he didn’t understand the reason for it being attached to a man’s body, and began to gently touch it. He rolled it around as if he were pinching it and rubbed it in circles again. His tongue left Sangwoo’s lips and held the opposite side of his chest instead. He sucked it into his mouth and bit the nipple with his teeth.

“Ah….”

A strange groan escaped Sangwoo’s throat. Sangwoo quickly covered his mouth with his palm, but Jaeyoung grabbed his wrist and pulled it down again. For a long time, he worked his tongue against his chest, persistently harassing it. Sangwoo’s hips were rising and falling and his toes were curling because of that. Sangwoo grabbed Jaeyoung’s head and pulled him closer to his body. As he did that, Jaeyoung bit the bump on his chest as if he had gotten permission to do so. Sangwoo clenched his teeth and held back a groan.

‘I feel overwhelmed.’

Amidst being befuddled, he felt thirsty. As his sexual pleasure increased and the ticklish feeling amplified, his frustration grew.

‘Quickly… I wish you’d do something about it.’

They had kissed and touched each other before. The reason he wanted to see Jaeyoung today was to raise this scratchy feeling to the top and completely relieve it.

“Stop.”

Jaeoyung’s lips had moved all the way down to his stomach at some point. Sangwoo didn’t know when he felt a breeze down below. Jaeyoung touched and licked everywhere else, but he didn’t touch the swollen genitalia which was about to burst. He got annoyed as he thought that he was teasing him on purpose. He had clearly told him to stop and ordered him to move on to the next step, but he wasn’t listening.

“Stop… I’m telling you to stop now.”

Instead of answering, Jaeyoung strongly bit his side, causing Sangwoo to scream out without realizing it himself. He sprung up feeling slightly angry. Jaeyoung looked surprised.

“Take it off.”

Sangwoo roughly pulled Jaeyoung’s shirt up without even unbuttoning it. A well-defined body appeared, making it difficult to breathe. Jaeyoung crumpled his clothes up, threw them far away, and looked at Sangwoo. He wasn’t doing anything, but he was out of breath. Jaeyoung’s lean chest was also rising and falling rapidly.

He was clearly a man, and he also seemed to have wider shoulders than Sangwoo himself, so why did he feel turned on at that appearance? If this was his type, how come nothing had happened when he was among men during middle and high school, and during military service? While Sangwoo asked himself so many questions, Jaeyoung sprung up.

He stalked off to the wall, turned off the lights and turned around. The dawn became dark from the disappearance of the artificial light. Only the faint light from the window shone down on them. Sangwoo gulped air in his excitement. While Jaeyoung was walking, he picked up a condom and lube from the floor, removed his pants and threw them somewhere random. Then, he crawled up to the bed in his underwear.

The man engulfed in darkness slowly blinked. His lips slightly fluttered, followed by the softest kind of kiss. The moment his eyes closed on their own, Jaeyoung wrapped his arms around Sangwoo’s back and pushed him back. He laid him fully down on the bed and lightly held Sangwoo’s genitals, which were ready for intercourse.

Playfully smiling, he whispered in a slightly hoarse voice, “why has it become like this?”

“The cavernous bo….”

“I shouldn’t have asked. Be quiet.”

Jaeyoung pulled down his underwear and tore open the condom wrapping. Sangwoo intentionally didn’t watch him put it on. Since he knew where it was about to enter, he thought that it would be better for his sanity not to confirm it with his bare eyes.

“Are you sure you put it on properly? And not turned inside out?”

“Yeah.”

“Did you take out the air and the end?”

“If it bothers you so much, then do it yourself.”

Jaeyoung ripped open another condom packet and put it on his finger. Watching him squeeze gel on top of it made Sangwoo’s mouth dry up. He bit his lips and folded his legs tightly.

Without any warning, Jaeyoung lowered Sangwoo’s underwear with one hand and placed it on his body. Then, seeing as he kissed him, it seemed like he meant to distract him so that he wouldn’t pay attention to his lower parts. While kissing frantically, a finger squeezed into his body. It being a violent foreign matter, he couldn’t feel anything else apart from that.

Jaeyoung continued to invade Sangwoo’s mouth with his tongue while simultaneously squeezing more gel onto the finger and moving it around. Sangwoo took a deep breath and wrapped his arms around his neck. He was going to believe since he had said that he’d tried it before. If he wasn’t an experienced person, he wouldn’t fully have trusted him with such a dangerous task.

“Sangwoo,” Jaeyoung whispered.

His finger was still busily moving. Sangwoo was too nervous to respond.

“Are you going to be this calm later as well?”

“We’ll have to see when the time comes.”

After the stupid question and answer, the foreign material got a lot harsher. It didn’t seem like a finger at all. Jaeyoung slowly moved his hand back and forth. Sangwoo frowned and tightly gripped onto his arm.

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