Chapter 63

Chapter 63

A few days later, we decided to go see Philia. She was supposed to go to Kren, but Philia was somehow there with the doctor, Logan.

Bleon and I went to visit Philia right after breakfast. When I opened the door to the treatment room, Logan and Philia were there. However, Bleon suddenly gripped my hand tighter as he held it.

“Madam…!”

As I was about to glance up at Bleon with a puzzled look, Philia called me with a welcome look.

“Philia!”

I was so happy to see her and smiled broadly, then looked at her sadly.

“Your face looks very bad. I heard you had a very hard time…”

Philia was in the warzone much longer than Bleon. Even so, her beauty still stood out.

“No, Madam. The duke had it harder than me.”

Philia looked at Bleon who was next to me. But as Bleon looked into her eyes again, he responded very briefly to Philia’s words.

“Not really.”

“Wow, the Duke is pretending not to have a hard time in front of his wife.”

“Really?”

“Don’t talk nonsense.”

Bleon was openly scolding Philia who was very excited. I glanced at him slightly and gave him a look so he wouldn’t do that.

“Why are you so mean? Philia is the Duke’s lifesaver.”

“Wife, it’s not that…!”

“Philia. Please understand that the Duke is a man who speaks harshly, but is not at heart.”

“Yes, Madam. I know.”

Fortunately, Philia didn’t look too upset.

“Madam, do you know? After being unconscious for over a month, the Duke woke up and looked for you first.”

“Really?”

“Yes. And because he had to go back to Madam quickly, he tried to move when the fractured bones in one of his legs had still not settled back together, so it was a real struggle.”

“Stop it.”

Bleon frowned as he told Philia to shut her mouth. But Philia didn’t give in, and she continued her story.

“Do you know how much I clenched my teeth and said I’ll tell Madam when I really came back?”

“You always talk too much.”

I looked at the two in turn. Considering the two’s first meeting, it was very strange that they are doing this now. Seeing them chatting like this, they seemed to be very close because they had been together for two months. Was this the power of the original story? Is the original story, which I could not afford to change, finally show its power?

I was happy, whatever it was. I was grateful that he returned alive, but I didn’t want anything more. And in the end, I will die and he will remain, so if he had Philia by his side, I could close my eyes more comfortably.

“Madam, Here is the medicine I was talking about yesterday.”

I looked at the two of them and thought for a moment, then Logan came up to me and handed me the medicine. However, the strength of Bleon’s grip got stronger again, and it even hurt a little.

“I’m going to have a check-up before taking the medicine.”

“That’s enough. From today on, the Einer Duchy’s family doctor is Philia. So Philia, you will take care of my wife.”

At Bleon’s bomb of a declaration, all three of us looked at Bleon with puzzled faces.

“Duke. What are you talking about all of a sudden? Logan’s been working so hard to bring me back to health. Suddenly, why Philia?”

I don’t know why he’s doing this, but I had to stop Philia from examining me. My illness was known only to my doctor, Logan, and nobody should ever know about it.

“Wife. Please…”

“Don’t do this recklessly. Logan, let’s get started.”

“Wife…! Don’t touch her.”

As the doctor tried to touch me, Bleon blocked the way. His voice was hard to listen to. I don’t know why Bleon was doing this, but the atmosphere he exuded also became unusual.

“Duke, let’s go back now.”

It felt like something was going to happen if I stayed like this. I hurriedly dragged him out of the treatment room. And immediately I took him back to the mansion, and as soon as I entered the bedroom I shouted at him almost immediately.

“What are you doing now?”

“…….”

“Why are you doing that to Logan? Why are you changing doctors all of a sudden?”

“You know that his disciple, Philia, is a better doctor now.”

“Even so. Logan has been the Duchy’s doctor for over a decade. You have to respect him.”

I don’t know if it’s because he has become close friends with Philia and wants to take care of her, but I couldn’t understand his reckless behavior in this way.

“I understand your desire to take care of Philia. I also want to reward her. I definitely think so. But this is not right.”

“It’s not because of Philia…”

“If not because of Philia, then what? Bleon, it’s okay if you don’t hide it from me. You don’t even need to consider me. If you like Philia, you can go ahead. I really don’t mind—”

“Are you serious…?”

Suddenly my words were cut off, and Bleon’s voice lowered even further.

“What?”

“Are you really serious when you’re saying that, Wife? Does that mean you don’t mind if I give Philia my heart?”

As he said that, he looked at me with a wounded look in his eyes.

“Haa, Bleon.”

I wanted to be by his side a little longer, but it must have been my big greed. I wanted to be with him just a little bit longer, not right before I died, but this life seemed to be over soon.

I made up my mind. Then, holding the dress tightly, I opened my mouth, deliberately hiding my emotions deeply.

“What do you think of Philia?”

“What do you mean…?”

“Unlike the first time, it seems that the two of you are very close now, do you have any feelings for her?”

“What are you saying now…!”

His pupils trembled slightly with an exasperated voice. It seemed like I hit the nail on the head.

“Calm down. I’m not trying to push you away. I’m honestly so tired right now. So I’m going on a trip.”

It wasn’t a lie. I was really exhausted physically and mentally from all that had happened to me, and it was right to go on a very long journey of no return.

“A… trip?”

“Yes. I believe it will be quite long, so I would like to end my relationship with you.”

To end the relationship meant to want a divorce. I was telling him that I wanted a second divorce. Although the first ended in failure, this time it had to succeed. I don’t know how he feels now at my words, but he just stared at me. I continued to speak.

“And yesterday I haven’t told you properly, they said I couldn’t have any more children. Does it make sense to say that as the Duchess, I can’t produce successors?”

About a week after my miscarriage, the doctor told me this—that my womb has become barren. But it didn’t really matter that much to me. It didn’t matter if I became infertile and died in the end. But as someone in the position of the Duchess, this matter was too important.

“It does not matter.”

“It does matter, Bleon. You are the head of the Einer family. As the head of the family, you have a responsibility to pass on to the next generation. But you can’t do that if you stay with me. So I’m going to let you go. It is not a place that I can stay by my greed alone.”

In order to convince Bleon, I talked lengthily about the responsibilities and duties of a nobleman.

“You said you loved me. You said you waited…! But are you giving up on me just for that reason?”

His eyes, who had been silently listening to me, turned red in an instant, and he expressed his anger at me.

“It’s not just that.”

“No. It’s such a trivial reason to give as an excuse that my wife wants to leave me.”

“Bleon…”

“Really… Is that all?”

“What?”

“Is that the only reason you want a divorce?”

Bleon looked at me as if he knew something, and my eyes intertwined with him. I felt my heart pounding in an instant.

“You’re going to throw me away again. Wife…”

“What?”

“Before and now… I’m the only one who wants you… And you’re just going to leave my side without saying anything to me again.”

What are you talking about? He was saying something to me, but I couldn’t understand what he was saying.

“What are you talking about now?”

“How did I get back… How did I bring you back…”

His muttering could be heard clearly in my ear, but it was still something I couldn’t understand.

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