Chapter 344 344; If Only... If Only...

"I'm useless! Very useless!" He stumbled around feeling empty and surrounded by darkness only.

"If only.. if only..." He mumbled as he moved around carelessly, he couldn't get anything but he suddenly got hold of a small pen knife.

He held the knife in his palm, he felt it was the only consolation, he felt this life wasn't worth it anymore.

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"I can't live on like this... What if... What if.." he held the knife in his palm tightly as he opened the shower while the water splashes onto his body.

Luo Feng who couldn't believe Lin Hong was all right, walked down the corridor towards the condominium and saw the two guards who were standing there at the door.

He nodded his head and got inside the living room and saw Luo Cheng and Luo Chen who were busy watching TV.

He shook his head as he approached the bedroom door and opened it before walking inside.

He couldn't see anyone in the bed, and in panic, he began searching around.

He dashed into the bathroom only to see Lin Hong laying on the cold floor while his arm bled profusely. His clothes were dripping wet and stuck onto his body.

"Lin Hong, what did you do?" His entire voice shook as he hurriedly carried his body and went back into the bedroom.

He placed him on the couch as he got a first aid kit and began treating his wound and stopping it from bleeding, he hadn't bled much, seemed he was just right on time.

"Lin Hong, you need to pull yourself together, you can't go on like this.." his eyes watered just seeing him sinking deeper down like this.

" Why did you save me? I don't want! I don't want to live anymore!" His weak body struggled while pushing him away.

He didn't want to live anymore, he didn't want to spend his entire life in the darkness and cause anguish to his family.

"Can't you bear with it for a little while? your father is looking for a cure! If you aren't that patient, I don't mind exchanging my eyes for you." He felt heartache seeing him like this, even though he hid his emotions, they had taken a toll on his health, he was thinning and looking more paler.

"I don't want! Do you know how many dangers he has to get through to get that cure? What if he dies along the way? I don't want them to go through anything... I rather don't live.." he struggled but Luo Feng completed dressing the wound up before pulling him into his arms and hugging him tightly.

"All right then, I will be your eyes, we can even exchange it if you want to, let's wait for Zhou Hua and he can perform the surgery." He hugged him tightly stopping him from struggling.

"Why would I accept your eyes? Then I will be indebted to you forever? I don't want... I don't want.." he was hysterical and his emotions were running so rampant.

"I don't want you to be indebted nor feel any burden, I just can't let you feel like this forever.. my life isn't worth anything compared to yours." His eyes watered, they have always been close and mostly did things together but when it came to this huge setback, he didn't mind sacrificing a little.

"I don't want... I will die of guilt, I don't want.." he mumbled as tears streamed down his cheeks.

" All right then, I won't force you to take my eyes but when it gets down to that level, we will have to do it, I won't accept it seeing you fading away like this... I won't accept it, I'm just a slave, and this life of mine is not worth it." He could do anything for him, just anything. He tightened his grip around his waist and shielded him, he didn't mind taking the blunt.

"No, I've never seen you as a slave, I've always treated you as my brother, I won't accept anyone sacrificing anything for me." He mumbled while his choked-up voice wavered.

" If you don't accept our sacrifices then give us the honor to attend to your needs and accompany you, please Lin Hong!" He closed his eyes calming down, Lin Hong was getting low and low every minute and depression was taking a toll on his health.

"I don't want to be a burden to anyone! I don't want to live like this." He pressed his face on his chest as he wrapped his arms around his waist.

"We will walk down this path altogether, so please give me this chance, please would you?" He pleaded and begged, he had to assure him that he will do his best to take care of him.

"You have your own life and ambitions, sticking around with me will drag you down, you may never achieve anything in this life apart from just being my eyes and companionship." He didn't want to live a life full of guilt.

" I don't have any such ambitions, being beside you and accompanying you is fair enough and it's a worthy achievement." He lightly sighed as he kissed his hair.

Lin Hong inhaled sharply as he calmed down, his hand was aching but that wasn't disrupting this moment.

It didn't take long before he fell asleep, he softly carried him to the bed and changed his wet clothes before tucking him in well.

He went back into the bathroom and cleaned up the mess, he didn't want the two brothers to have any fights as their relationship will get worse and deteriorate since they began doubting each other.

He got a wet napkin and dipped it inside the warm waters before wrangling it dry.

He walked back to the bed and cleaned his hands, face, and feet before covering his back.

"Lin Hong, I don't mind sacrificing my eyes, but for me... you being alive is my greatest treasure." He kissed his forehead as his hot tears fell onto his forehead.

He wiped the tears and calmed himself down before walking out of the bedroom and saw Luo Cheng and Luo Chen who were busy watching a movie.