CH 38.2

Bai Qingqing looked at him and said in an aggrieved tone: “You said you want to be with me but do you know what kind of person I am?”

At that time, Cheng Rui did not know he was falling into a trap nor did he know she was telling the truth. She really wasn’t a good person, trying to seduce men and have them fall deeply in love with her, just so she could go on with her life.

Bai Qingqing’s clear voice sounded a bit sad: “When you discover my true character, you won’t like me anymore. And if you get tired, you will leave me behind.”

Two crocodile tears dropped from her eyes: “Cheng Rui, I am afraid of being abandoned. I want someone to accept everything I am. Whether I am a good person or not, I want him to love me for who and what I am and let me be myself and cause trouble.”

Cheng Rui recalled Bai Qingqing’s frightened look from the past and his heart ached beyond words. If he could rewind time, he would go back to before her memory loss, hold her in his arms and tell her she wasn’t doing anything wrong.

Cheng Rui’s face was hidden in the shadows and Bai Qingqing couldn’t see his distressed expression. His voice was a little numb when he said her name: “Qingqing.” 

Bai Qingqing felt heartache and happy emotions surged through her. That was why men couldn’t forget their first love, even if they fell in love with someone else. They would always show up when their first world was in trouble because the men felt they always needed them. Love disappeared with time but once someone felt protective of someone else, it was game over.

Cheng Rui didn’t know how to love but Bai Qingqing was teaching him; her soft voice was hiding poison with no cure, that would run deep into his veins.

“Loving someone means she will feel safe and you will feel that giving her everything in the world will never be enough. Cheng Rui, do you really love me?”

Cheng Rui raised his gaze to look at the girl in front of him. Her eyes were clear and very serious, and he had to admit he didn’t; he liked her and his heart beat faster in her presence but he didn’t love her as she wanted.

Cheng Rui didn’t say anything but grabbed her arm again and pulled her into his arms, the urge to kiss her with it. Bai Qingqing leaned in his embrace a little unexpectedly and supported herself with both hands on his chest, her face full of confusion.

***

She didn’t see Cheng Rui the following day and learned from the maid he had followed Cheng Yan to the highest-level part of the base, probably preparing for a new job.

Bai Qingqing played games on her phone for a while until she entered her space.

Her spatial ability was level 3 and her plant one was level two. She was neither high nor low in the last days, but definitely not strong enough for her to wander alone.

But her ability to control plants and animals needed to be upgraded soon. She would have to reach level 4 to be able to control mutants just as strong and only when she rose to an even higher level would she be able to control many at a time.

She used to love to grow plants and flowers and raise cats and puppies. Once both her abilities would be upgraded, she would be able to keep some in her space. This was pretty awesome.

Staying at the Yaoyang Base to be raised by a man and wait every day for him to come back and spoil her wasn’t anything she aimed to be. But while she only needed to eat a few crystal cores to reach level three, she needed much more to upgrade to level four, of even higher-level. Unfortunately, Tier five zombies had consciousness and intelligence and were really not easy to deal with.

At a time like that, she really missed her fake brother. He might have been a bit of a psycho, he really spoiled his baby sister.

Bai Qingqing stood in her space and glanced at her shelves full of items, feeling full of security. Although these materials and resources belonged to the team, they were all in her space and she could use them as she pleased.

She looked at her small strawberry field. She hadn’t had time to pick it completely and some of the ripened fruit had already fallen to the ground. If the purple plant hadn’t eaten all of them yet, it must be that her space power was getting stronger.

The little purple plant sensed her enter the space and swayed at her feet: “Master~”

Bai Qingqing squatted down and looked at the plant. It used to be a first-tier mutant plant but had now reached the second level; it was now much easier to communicate.

“Did you miss me?” She touched the leaves.

“Chirp, chirp, I did~” It answered.

“Good boy.”

She looked at her field again, which was bigger than before, and wondered what to harvest next. But as she started to think about it, a voice sounded from outside the space.

“Miss Bai, wake up.”

“Sleeping during the day?” said the domineering voice of a woman, “You really do not understand the rules at all.”