CH 81

Chapter 81: Heart

It was still very early for dinner, and Lu Shi quickly went back to his room to play games. Lu Hua pulled on Chang Qing cheerfully and wanted to go for a walk with him.

Lu Zheng stopped Lu Hua, and said to her: “I have something to say to him.”

Lu Hua hesitated for a moment but didn’t think too much about it. She waved her hand and said, “Then you guys talk.”

Turning to Chang Qing, she said, “When you’re done talking, send me a message and I’ll come down to find you.”

Chang Qing agreed, then watched Lu Hua leave. He didn’t look at Lu Zheng until her figure disappeared from his eyes, “What can I do for you?”

Lu Zheng sidestepped the question, “How is it outside?”

Chang Qing paused, “It’s okay.”

Lu Zheng boldly looked directly at his face, scrutinized for a while, and said in a low voice: “You’ve lost weight.”

Chang Qing lowered his eyes, and said softly: “I went to the gym. I didn’t lose much weight.”

He didn’t have a lot of flesh, and now there’s even less. The soft meat between his waist and abdomen is gone, replaced by slightly bulging abdominal muscles.

Sure enough, it was good for men to have abdominal muscles. Someone like Chang Qing, who had never liked to look in the mirror, can’t help but start to look in the mirror more frequently.

Lu Zheng was silent for a while, then said, “I miss you.”

Chang Qing: “…”

He raised his eyes to look at him, and Lu Zheng looked him in the eye. He suppressed his voice and say unhurriedly, “I can’t stop thinking about you.”

Chang Qing hesitated for a while before asking, “Have you lost your mind?”

Lu Zheng laughed. His beautiful eyes seemed to be illuminated with light. His tone was slow and carried a relaxed tone. “Are you scared by me?”

Chang Qing didn’t say anything. He was a little scared. In addition to being scared, his face was still burning because of the words “I miss you” that seemed to be on the tip of his tongue.

Lu Zheng’s voice became a little heavy, “I don’t want to care anymore,” he said. “I don’t care Chang Qing. You can’t stay single until you grow old. You have to get married. I don’t want to see anyone else standing by your side. No one can do it but me.”

Chang Qing’s tone became difficult, “Can’t you stop thinking about it? Your elder brother has been gone for less than half a year, and you’re already thinking about his widow?”

Lu Zheng said: “It’s better than you being thought about by others.”

Chang Qing sighed, and said: “You think too much, no one will think about me. Except Qiao Zhenran, no one likes me.”

Lu Zheng didn’t say anything.

After a while, Chang Qing said: “Neither of us should cross that red line. Once we cross the line, there is no turning back even if we regret it. Do you understand? This is different from other people. We’re not ordinary acquaintances who know each other well. It’s also more difficult for us to follow this path. You’re still young, and your thoughts aren’t mature. When you’re a few years older, you won’t think like this anymore.”

Lu Zheng seemed to find this funny, and the corners of his lips curled up a little “You’re only two years older than me.”

Chang Qing said, “There is a generation gap between three years old. You should be glad that I am only two years older than you. The age difference isn’t that big, so I can understand your feelings.”

Lu Zheng asked: “Understand my feelings?”

He laughed, showing his white teeth, “You can still understand when I hold such thoughts?”

Chang Qing’s eyes fell on him, and then quickly moved away, gazing off into the distance, “It’s not something incomprehensible.”

Lu Zheng smiled and said in a low voice: “I won’t play dumb with you. Come back and live.”

Chang Qing was about to refuse, but Lu Zheng said: “Don’t say no, you’re having a bad time out there, aren’t you?

Chang Qing said: “I’ve been doing pretty well.”

Lu Zheng said: “Liar, you don’t look like a person who has a good life with that look on your face. Take a look at yourself in the mirror.”

Lu Zheng took out a mirror from somewhere and handed it to him, “Take a good look at your face, it’s like a ghost.”

Chang Qing: “…”

He took the mirror and looked at his face. He couldn’t see anything just by looking at his face but there were some dark circles under his eyes which was from staying up and watching dramas.

Lu Zheng said: “Your face is flushed at home, but after a few days outside, your face is so pale. Ghosts will be scared when they see you.”

Chang Qing put down the mirror and said in a low voice: “How can it be so exaggerated?”

Lu Zheng said: “It’s the truth.”

With the spirit that silence was gold, Chang Qing kept his mouth shut.

Lu Zheng also fell silent, and after a while, he said in a brisk tone: “Come back, I won’t drive you away again.”

Chang Qing reminded him, “I’m the one who wants to go, it has nothing to do with you.”

Lu Zheng’s sharp eyes fell on him and became soft, “It was because of me. I didn’t stop you and let you go.”

Chang Qing couldn’t help but pick up his teacup and drink some water.

Lu Zheng said, “Lu Hua misses you, don’t you love her the most? She asked you to come back, but you still insist on not coming back? “

Chang Qing said earnestly: “She is 14 years old, young eagles have to leave their parents and learn to fly by themselves. I’m not much use to her anymore.”

Lu Zheng was silent for a while, then asked, “As  a family member isn’t your most important role companionship?”

Chang Qing raised his eyes and looked at Lu Zheng, who happened to be looking at him too. His eyes were flickering with a faint glow. “Come back. Not only does she miss you… I miss you too.”

Chang Qing’s face was burning again, and his tongue was almost tied up, “Last time you let me go, saying you didn’t want to see me. What are you doing now?”

Lu Zheng looked into his eyes and said, “I want to try.”

Chang Qing: “…Try what?”

Lu Zheng didn’t answer, but he kept looking at Chang Qing with an inquiring focus, as if observing his expression.

Chang Qing also sensed the deep meaning behind his gaze. His eyes seemed to want to scrape his flesh, get inside him, and see into his heart.

This feeling is really bad, and it makes Chang Qing feel weird. This feeling was like a rabbit being targeted by a falcon. In addition to panic and a bit of unexplained fear, there was also a little bit of a near-death intuition.

This feeling made Chang Qing unable to look directly at Lu Zheng. He looked away, changed the subject, and said, “If we have dinner at seven o’clock, I’ll go and play a few games with Lu Hua.”

Lu Zheng said slowly and calmly: “I will too. What game do you want to play? I’ll play it too.”

Chang Qing: “…Don’t you not play games?”

Lu Zheng said, “I can play now, to match your hobbies.”

Chang Qing: “…”

He didn’t speak.

He couldn’t figure out why Lu Zheng changed so quickly. He’d clearly said that he didn’t want to see him before.

Lu Zheng said: “If you want to play, I’ll accompany you.”

After a while Chang Qing said, “Let’s play then. You don’t hold me back.”

Lu Zheng said: “That friend of yours is good. He took me to find diamonds.”

Chang Qing realized that he was talking about Zhang Xinyu, and he looked at him strangely, “When did you start getting along with him so well?”

Lu Zheng smiled steadily, “It’s not very good, it will be better with you.”

Chang Qing: “Oh.”

He took out his cell phone, “Come on, play King of Glory. Do you know it?”

Lu Zheng said, “Yes.”

Chang Qing pretended to be relaxed and said: “You’re so busy everyday do you still have time to play games, ah?

Lu Zheng replied: “When the boss wants to play, there is always time.”

Chang Qing let out an “Oh. That’s right.”

The two of them quickly matched, and Lu Zheng kept silent and began to focus on playing the game.

Chang Qing couldn’t hold back, and glanced at him a few times. He had just soaked in cold water, and his face was a little pale, but it also made his eyebrows and eyes beautiful. Even his side profile was very good-looking. His face, as long as he looked down, wasn’t too aggressive, but if he looked up at someone, he always had an arrogant temperament, which always made people feel uncomfortable.

Chang Qing thought that he knew Lu Zheng well enough, but now, he felt that he might not know him that well after all.

Lu Zheng spoke without looking up: “Don’t be in a daze. I want you to watch me finish playing the game.”

Chang Qing: “…”

He withdrew his mind and focused on playing the game.

Someone in the team turned on the voice chat. It was a girl, and she yelled coquettishly: “Come on, little brother, go up the middle and attack the tower with me, okay?”

Lu Zheng didn’t pay attention, but he watched Chang Qing run to the middle road and followed him.

After the operation, the girl said in a charming voice, “Little brother is so powerful. It looks like I can be a salted fish and win by just lying down.”

Lu Zheng felt uncomfortable all over, and he turned off his voice function.

Chang Qing didn’t turn his off, but he didn’t speak either. Lu Zheng glanced at him, “You don’t want to turn off the voice?”

Chang Qing replied, “Her voice is very nice.”

Lu Zheng smiled and didn’t speak.

This game was naturally a victory. Chang Qing’s game skills were very good, but Lu Zheng was on par with him, and neither was better than the other.

Chang Qing didn’t continue to play the next round. He stroked the smooth screen of the phone and said softly, “What did you mean when you said you wanted to try?”

Lu Zheng didn’t answer, and Chang Qing said, “When you spoke before your attitude wasn’t like this.”

Lu Zheng said softly, “I had a fever that day, so I don’t remember what I said.”

Chang Qing laughed and said, “It’s not like you were drunk, what’s to remember or not to remember?”

Lu Zheng snorted and said, “If I say I don’t remember, I don’t remember.”

Chang Qing nodded, “Okay, I’ll just pretend you didn’t say that .”

Lu Zheng: “Will you come back?”

Chang Qing said after a while, “Let’s talk about it later, ok?”

He didn’t want to follow the old path of the original owner.