Chapter 24.2

After breakfast, I took my medicine out of the package. It’s the suppressant that I always take.

A slightly big orange pill in a round shape. I rolled it around in my palm and stared at it.

I think it might be the first time I looked at this medicine so closely.

Usually, I just took it without thinking about it.

Because there was no other choice other than to take this medicine.

Ever since I had my first heat, I always took this medicine while preparing myself to take it for the rest of my life.

…For some reason, I couldn’t bring myself to take this medicine now.

I brought it up to my mouth, but it just wouldn’t leave my fingers. I didn’t even want to open my lips.

I put my hand down, still holding the medicine.

I’ve been doing the same thing for three times now.

Yuugo is in the kitchen now. He was packing up the excess bread so I could bring them home with me. When he’s done with that, we would get ready to go out, and get in the car to go.

There was only a short time left for us to be together.

“Hey Sou. Your luggage would be a lot… Sou?”

Yuugo poked his head out of the kitchen.

He was looking at me while holding a plastic bag filled with bread in both of his hands.

His gaze made me feel a bit panicked, and I hurriedly brought the medicine in my hand to my mouth. But it didn’t go well.

The pill fell from the gap between my fingers.

“Ah…”

The pill fell onto the wooden floor and rolled around. I couldn’t go and pick up the pill that had rolled so far away.

I couldn’t move.

Yuugo put down the plastic bags he was holding in both hands and went to pick up the pill instead.

He stared at the pill in his hand and then walked toward me.

“Sorry, Yuugo… sorry.”

“What’s wrong? Why are you apologizing all of a sudden?”

“…..I don’t want to take that medicine.”

I ended up blurting it out from my mouth.

Even though I would just trouble Yuugo by saying something like that.

But, I didn’t want to take it.

I couldn’t do that.

I’m an omega in heat here with an alpha. There was no way we could stay together without me taking the medicine. I knew that there’s more meaning implied behind me saying that I don’t want to take the medicine.

I’m just the same with those omegas on the forum by being like this.

Just like those omegas that Yuugo hated.

Even though I didn’t want to be the same as them… Even though I didn’t want Yuugo to be disillusioned with me.

“Sorry… I’ll take it after all… There’s just something weird with me.”

The hand that I held out to receive the medicine from Yuugo couldn’t fulfill its job. He grabbed my wrist tightly and pulled me.

The next thing I knew, I was being embraced in Yuugo’s arms.

“…Wh- at?”

“You understand the meaning of those words, right?”

“…That’s why I’m saying I’ll take the meds.”

“—I don’t want you to take it either.”

Huh…?

I couldn’t see what kind of face Yuugo was making because I was being embraced.

But the tone of his voice didn’t sound like he was joking.

“Yuu- go…?”

“You always said that you don’t want to be an omega, so I thought you would be uncomfortable with something like this… That’s why I couldn’t say it before. Sorry.”

“…That means-”

“I actually don’t want to be apart from you. I want to make love with you. I want to bite your nape and leave a mark that won’t disappear— I’ve always wanted to do all that.”

He let go of my body and looked down at my face.

I could see Yuugo’s expression.

Deep inside his eyes, I could feel a presence of a ferocious beast. It was a presence of a beast called alpha.

“…I haven’t taken my medicine either. Because I didn’t want to.”

“You too, Yuugo…?”

“But, I intended on putting your feelings first. I thought I’d take the medicine once you did.”

Even about things like this, Yuugo was willing to go to such lengths to match my pace.

All of my worries from earlier were blown away in one go by the fact that Yuugo’s would think of me first.

This time, I’m the one who clung to Yuugo’s body. I inhaled Yuugo’s scent into my chest.

“Sou…?”

I was supposed to be afraid at the thought of being someone else’s pair, but my nape was still heating up from Yuugo’s words earlier.

My instincts are screaming at me, wanting Yuugo to bite my nape and leave a mark there.

No, it wasn’t just my instinct that desired for it.

“If I desired for it, will you do it for me?”

“I might not stop even if you dislike it halfway— I’ll do it if you still want to do it despite that.”

A low voice.

Yuugo’s fingertips touched the nape of my neck.

My body jolted from the strong shock I felt from that place.

We looked at each other.

I felt that the ferocious presence lurking inside his eyes seemed to be a bit stronger than before.

My breathing became erratic.

My body became so unbearably hot.

“…I want you- to bite me.”

I want to give all of my being to this beautiful beast.

That was what my instincts were screaming at me.