CH 14.3

If Bai Xinglan was criticised by his brother when no one was present, he would admit his mistake obediently. But in front of outsiders, especially in front of his deadly enemy, he only felt that his self-esteem was hurt. ‘Brother, you don’t love me anymore, and I don't love you anymore! I don't want a big brother like you who turns his elbows outward!’

The more he thought about it, the more wrong he felt, and the more he thought about it, the angrier he got.

"What did I do to hear such words? I’m not you, and I live the way I want. No matter how bad or rubbish my life is, I have the love of my parents, do you have it? You must be jealous of me," Suddenly, Bai Xinglan’s furious words echoed in the living room.

Bai Xingfan froze, staring at his younger brother in a daze without uttering a single word for a long time.

Both Su Yan and Su Zhan were also stunned, completely at a loss.

After finishing this sentence, Bai Xinglan actually regretted what he had said, but out of respect for his face, he refused to lower his head and strode away from the living room without daring to glance back at his brother.

"Xinglan," hastily yelled Su Yan to stop him.

Bai Xinglan left the living room as if he had never heard of it and continued to stroll directly towards the villa's gate.

When Bai Xinglan didn’t stop, Su Yan looked at Bai Xingfan helplessly.

Once he was out of his daze, Bai Xingfan sternly remarked, "Don't worry about him!"

Su Yan was forced to get up from the couch, run to Bai Xinglan, and eventually catch up with him outside the villa: "Where are you going?"

Bai Xinglan clenched his teeth and said, "Going home," while fighting back tears. But these two words were like the valve ribs on a vehicle tyre, and as soon as he finished speaking, he was unable to hold back his tears any longer, and he began to shout in anger: "He likes to kill me! I was his younger brother after eight unfortunate reincarnations!"

Su Yan thought that this person could be referred to as Silly Baitian 2. And even more repulsive than her family’s Silly Baitian.

"You must be the one your brother loves the most," she let out a small sigh, "I am more fierce towards Xiaozhan than your brother is towards you when we argue."

Bai Xinglan knew his brother very well, and retorted: "It's not the same! He was really attacking me just now! He would do the same thing whether you were there or not! He is the only one in the family who would treat me like that! Didn't I just give the tutor a record player? What's up!"

As her younger brother was also engaged in this situation, Su Yan had no choice but to respond, "Your brother disciplines you harshly, which implies he cares about you."

Bai Xinglan sneezed, "Ha..he is this old. I don't think he has never done crooked things before. He can’t live as he wants, coming to control my life…"

"I guess you can't say that about your brother," Su Yan stated in a deep voice after a brief pause and a little frown.

Bai Xinglan displayed a stubborn attitude as he turned her face away in disbelief.

Su Yan looked at the young man's sharp-edged side face, and asked, "You said just now that your brother can't live as he pleases. Why?"

Bai Xinglan was uncommented.

Su Yan sighed: "Because he is the oldest brother and a leader in your generation. He carries the burden of your family's mission and endures all of the pressure. Because of this, you have the freedom to live your life as you like. Because of that, you were able to participate in the robot competition with grace and leisure. Has he participated in this kind of competition?"

After Su Yan’s question, Bai Xinglen thought about his brother.

Bai Xingfan had never freely done anything. As the heir of the family, he could hardly have any personal hobbies during his growth. He could only learn things that were beneficial to the family.

His brother's life route had already been planned by his elders, and he could only follow this route, otherwise, he would be regarded as not doing his job properly, playing with things, and losing his ambition.

Bai Xinglan could still remember what had happened when he was eight years old. His brother was fourteen years old at that time and fell in love with the guitar and rock music, but was forbidden to play at home. So he and some of his friends formed a band secretly, and they practiced at a warehouse far from home. Bai Xinglan accidentally overheard his brother and the bandmates talking on the phone, and asked his brother to take him over there. Eventually, his older brother took him there since he was getting tired of his soft and hard talk. He was overjoyed, and couldn't sleep the night after getting back home because he was so excited. When his mother asked why, he totally forgot his brother's advice and told his loving mother about the band. At the time, he believed that his parents were the best parents in the world, that they were very kind and patient with him, and that they would undoubtedly regard his brother's interests with great consideration.

But the following day, their mother went to his brother's hidden warehouse and, in front of his brother's eyes, cut the guitar strings with a pair of scissors. In front of his brother, he tore it to pieces before sealing the warehouse.

From the beginning to the conclusion, they didn't acknowledge his brother's talent, instead, they repeatedly slapped him with real-world punishments. Bai Xingfan hadn’t picked up a guitar since that time.

While he was younger, he wasn't aware of what he had done wrong, but as he grew older, he understood that his brother's only free world had been wrecked by his crude words.

It was not that Bai Xingfan had never been rebellious, but his rebellion was so insignificant compared to the pressure of the family, especially after their father fell seriously ill, that he didn't even have the qualifications to rebel.

Bai Xinglan quickly clenched his fists and lowered his eyes as he felt guilty.

Su Yan hesitated briefly before deciding to complete the phrase: "Although he was a few years older than you, he had to travel the most difficult path. I guess he punished you so severely because he wants you to always be innocent and pure, which is what he wants to be in his fantasies, not because he has double standards." 

Once more, Bai Xinglan's eyes went red.

"If you still want to go home, let the driver take you back." Su Yan muttered helplessly.

Bai Xinglan raised his hand to wipe away his tears, stood at the door for a while, turned, and went back to the villa, but just as he took a step back, he stopped in his tracks and said, "Brother..."

Su Yan abruptly turned around and stared at him in shock. observing Bai Xingfan, who was standing close to them.

'When did he come?’

Bai Xingfan turned his head away as the four eyes locked, focusing instead on his younger brother.

Still feeling a little hurt, Bai Xinglan pursed his lips and went inside. However, just as he passed his brother, he muttered, "I'm sorry," in a low voice. 

'I apologise, after all, I should not have revealed your secret to our mother many years ago.’

‘I apologise; I should not have said that about you just now, should not have said that our parents don't care about you.’

Bai Xingfan was deeply touched, and before saying anything to his younger brother, Bai Xinglan had already gone inside the house.

There were only two people remaining outside the villa, and it was a dark and starry night. Su Yan was a little embarrassed and wasn't sure how much Bai Xingfan had heard.

In fact, many of the things she said were her own guesses. If she guessed wrong, it would be extremely embarrassing if she was mistaken about her guess.

She kept staring down at her toes because she was so embarrassed to look at Bai Xingfan's face.

Bai Xingfan unexpectedly said, ‘Thank you’ when she was trying to come up with a way to deal with the embarrassment.

She abruptly raised her head and gave him a surprised look.

"Thank you, Ms. Su, for your understanding," Bai Xingfan smiled warmly as he drew the corners of his lips together.

He had been involuntary since he was born, and he would not be able to break free from the shackles in the future. It was really a blessing to have someone who understood him.

A little ashamed, Su Yan whispered, "I'm only providing the facts to make sense."

Bai Xingfan: "There are not many people who are sensible."

Su Yan said modestly: "I'm not that good."

"Obviously, you have," as Bai Xingfan said, "if I can marry Miss Su as my wife, it must be a blessing from three lives." He didn't avert his gaze.
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