CH 68

Feeling breathless because of his gaze, Ming Zhu stood up and said, “I’ll go pour you a glass of water.”

Zhao Zhi did not stop her and obediently hummed.

The water in the tea pot had long since cooled, but Ming Zhu did not request a servant to come change it, she poured half a cup of cold water, slowly walked up to him and handed him the cup.

Zhao Zhi seemed to be very drunk, his eyes had been hazy all along, not seeing clearly, and he almost didn’t hold on the tea cup that she handed him.

After finishing the cold water, he returned the cup of tea to her without saying anything.

Ming Zhu thought that he still wanted to drink, so she handed him another cup of water once again.

Zhao Zhi still didn’t have any reaction, he just tilted his head and drank it all.

Ming Zhu felt that she was having a bit of a headache, “Do you want more?”

Zhao Zhi shook his head, “I’m not thirsty anymore.”

Ming Zhu had never taken care of a drunk person and she didn’t know what to do with him.

Thinking about it, she said: “How about you sleep now?”

Zhao Zhi’s eyes kept staring at her without moving, and then shook his head like he just had.

He looked like he wanted to reach out and touch her, but it seemed that he was afraid that his palm would be too cold, his hand stopped in mid-air before retracting.

His voice was very gentle and, although it wasn’t easy to notice, also sounded like he was aggrieved, “Did you forget?”

Ming Zhu lowered her face, “Forget what?”

“Today is my birthday, and it’s going to be over soon.”

Ming Zhu did almost forgot, but on the way over here, she suddenly remembered it.

Today was indeed Zhao Zhi’s birthday.

She was a little surprised that he actually didn’t celebrate it in the palace.

Ming Zhu stared at her own toes, she didn’t meet his eyes as she said, “Mmh, I forgot.”

Ming Zhu knew that although Zhao Zhi didn’t open his mouth to talk about it, but every year when it was his birthday, he was a bit more joyful inside than usual.

He just didn’t show it on his face.

Speaking of his birthday, Ming Zhu again felt a bit depressed, she was always having dreams, on and off she kept dreaming of the happenings of her previous life.

In her dreams, the crown prince later on never again celebrated his birthday.

He didn’t prepare any joyful event, never held any banquet, and even during the New Year, the residence was also cold and quiet.

He didn’t hold a wedding, making it so that other people in the capital also didn’t dare to celebrate their weddings with great fanfare, they would just arrange it furtively and perfunctorily.

The more Ming Zhu looked at it, the more she felt that the way he lived his life was really too boring and meaningless, was leading the life of a walking corpse fun ? He was carrying a dead face all day long and she never saw him smile again.

The tingling pain on her fingertips brought Ming Zhu back to her senses, the man’s face was lowered, his furrowed brows were hiding a bit of sadness. After a moment, he lifted his face again, looked at her and said, “Then you have to remember next year.”

Ming Zhu dared to take advantage of the moment where he was easy to bully to tell him a few truthful words, “I won’t remember it next year either.”

Despite her small voice, Zhao Zhi still heard her.

Him: “Why?”

Ming Zhu diverted the topic, “You hurry and sleep.”

Zhao Zhi lazily hummed, under the light, he still looked warm and gentle, there wasn’t any aggressiveness, nor frightening sharpness. He said: “I haven’t bathed yet.”

Ming Zhu was unwilling to help him bathe and change his clothes.

“I’ll have the maids come help.”

Zhao Zhi grabbed her hand, not letting her go.

Ming Zhu struggled a bit, but couldn’t break free.

Zhao Zhi looked at her and said, “Don’t run away.”

Why was he so afraid of her running away even when he was drunk? Ming Zhu remained silent.

Zhao Zhi clasped her hands and slightly lowered his eyelashes, somewhat hazy as he said: “Why do you always have to run away?”

Ming Zhu figured that, after sobering up, he most definitely wouldn’t be able to remember anything, so she became much bolder and said all the truth, “Because I, do not love you.”

In her previous life, she loved him.

In this life, she no longer loved him anymore.

No matter what, she couldn’t love someone who had killed her and was going to kill her.

Zhao Zhi’s expression slightly froze and the smile at the corners of his mouth faded. After a while, he said, “I know.”

Ming Zhu did not hold back, “If you know then you should let me go, as I see it, you are quite considerate towards others.”

He was very reasonable and understanding.

Zhao Zhi, however, suddenly started talking about something else, “In the past, my mother used to hope that I would marry a woman that I really loved.”

However, Zhao Zhi was difficult to influence.

After a few times, his mother stopped trying to persuade him.

Even Zhao Zhi himself wasn’t too interested in these kind of matters, marrying an educated and reasonable girl was enough.

Later, his father told him that, in this life, it was best not to have any weakness.

He was the crown prince, the burden on his shoulders was heavy.

He had no room to make mistakes.

Ming Zhu didn’t say anything.

Zhao Zhi also did not intend to say anything more.

He was most likely a little sleepy and, leaning quietly against the side of the bed, he closed his eyes.