Fu Jinxiao noticed that his friend was looking at him strangely. He raised his eyebrows, and said with a mysterious smile, “Why?”
Shen Minglang pushed his glasses. Cold sweat started to build up on his temple. “Who do you like?”
He wanted to see who was so capable that could hook Fu Jinxiao so deeply. Especially since Fu Jinxiao never batted an eye for those high-class young ladies or popular little stars in the entertainment industry.
Not to mention, since their student days, this person has been a famous person in the school – he had good grades, good looks, good family background… a top match in all aspects. It was no exaggeration to say that eight of the ten girls in the school had a crush on Fu Jinxiao at some point.
That’s the kind of person who actually sat here and said to him, on an ass hour in the morning of the second day of the new year, that he had someone he likes AND he’s not confident about it. Truly earth-shaking.
Fu Jinxiao beside him was playing with the red wine glass in his hand, and said softly, “–well, first and foremost, it’s a boy.”
Shen Minglang said, “It is now legal for two men to marry, but it is still not fully accepted by the public. If it is a boy, especially because of your superstar status, it will be… harder than usual, I think.”
Fu Jinxiao nodded. “I have also considered this matter.”
“And then?” Shen Minglang urged him, “Be more specific.”
Fu Jinxiao leaned lazily on the sofa, the corner of his mouth curled into a smile, and he slowly said, “He is a very cute boy with an… interesting personality. Although sometimes he is not very smart, his simple-minded appearance is actually very endearing.”
Shen Minglang endured his growing impatience, “That’s not specific at all.”
Fu Jinxiao raised an eyebrow, “You never asked me how specific, have you?”
“…”
Shen Minglang was this close to just leaving this doggy thing alone.
Fu Jinxiao could see his friend’s last shred of patience, and finally heaved a long sigh, “Yesterday we kind of… showed our hearts to each other.”
Shen Minglang drank red wine and said coolly, “So you got dumped.”
“?”
Actor Fu was stumped. Why did everyone he talked to always say this about his situation?
“No…” Fu Jinxiao laughed, and looked at his friend, “How can you be sure that I was dumped?”
Shen Minglang leaned on the sofa and turned on the TV in the private room. It happened that the Spring Festival Gala was being played. So, he leisurely watched the show while saying, “I know you’ve rejected countless people over the years. So there’s no way your reaction would be this extreme if this was the case. You even stayed up all night.”
Fu Jinxiao was curious about his friend’s accurate guess. “How do you know that I was staying up all night?”
Shen Minglang gave him a judgemental look, “Yesterday’s banquet ended in the early morning. You made a call at… around five in the morning, and now you still have big dark circles under your eyes. Of course you stayed up all night.”
“…”
Shen Minglang sure had a poisonous mouth.
Fu Jinxiao let out a long sigh.
On the outside, he could be regarded as a figure who had the power to call the wind and rain. But now he could only lie on the sofa and be trapped by his emotions.
Shen Minglang finally decided to get straight to the point, “So now you like him, but the other party doesn’t like you?”
Fu Jinxiao responded almost immediately, “No, he likes me too.”
Shen Minglang gave him a look as if Fu Jinxiao was sick on the head, ” Then what are you hesitating about?”
The actor choked, and couldn’t answer this question for a while. He hesitated too much, so he didn’t know where to start.
When he first met Shen Xingsui, he just thought this young man was very interesting.
He obviously looked so inferior and weak, but he always appeared in places that surprised him. He also always did things that surprised him.
There were many people who liked him, and they more or less wanted to get something from him: money, fame, wealth… but when Shen Xingsui looked at him, his eyes were so straightforward, without any desire. His gaze was very pure.
It was very unusual. Very strange.
And that strangeness was the thing that attracted all his attention.
He was kind to him at the beginning because he felt pity for the youth, and he was also a fan of himself, so he couldn’t help but take more care of him.
Later, when he treated the youth well, he really regarded Shen Xingsui as his student. Then it evolved into a junior who liked him, making the actor want to support him more and more.
After realizing that Shen Xingsui has more fanciful feelings towards him than he originally imagined… at first, Fu Jinxiao was just happy. But now, he couldn’t restrain his displeasure over his confusion.
Was Shen Xingsui’s liking for him really love?
Or was it just because Shen Xingsui met him during his darkest years. And he became this beacon figure in his life?
Was he just an idol to him? Or was his liking towards Fu Jinxiao different?
Then later, when he realize that Fu Jinxiao was just an ordinary person, will he still like the actor?
Fu Jinxiao clicked his tongue. “You don’t understand.”
“What do I not understand?” Shen Minglang looked at him with contempt, and said simply, “If you like him, Just chase him and tie him to your side.”
Fu Jinxiao shot him a look, “Everyone is subject to change. No one can always be sure that his mind will not change.”
–Just like his father.
He heard people say that his father and mother used to be deeply in love as husband and wife. Later, the company’s business grew bigger and bigger, and after it went international, his father’s life became more and more busy, and he often couldn’t see his wife.
In that case, did he actually love his mother at that point? Or that love faded as their distance grew?
He often thought… if he could have spent more time with his mother during her pregnancy… would it prevent the dystocia from happening in the first place?
Or…
If he didn’t insist on flying to the United States when his wife’s due date was approaching, then would Wen Rong not die that day, and she could survive?
Marriage was not only about love, but also about responsibility.
Then, his father got engaged to another woman in the second year after his mother died. He also brought the other woman to him, and asked him to call her mother, saying that she would be the matriarch of the family in the future.
Li Na was an okay person, was his first impression.
His father’s choice didn’t seem to be wrong either.
And so was everyone. They all agree that Li Na was the perfect Mrs. Fu. They said that it’s a pity that fate didn’t let them meet earlier. They said that life was inherently full of regrets.
Fu Jinxiao often wonders – who was at fault? Is it his mother who was at fault, or was it himself, the child who killed her, or their failed marriage?
Can he bear the responsibility of marriage and make his lover happy?
He has no longing for marriage, nor does he expect love.
He is an egoist, he always thinks that it is enough to take care of himself.
But when facing Shen Xingsui, this idea seemed to be collapsing a little bit. He wanted to take care of the youth, he worried that the youth would be bullied, and he wanted to make sure the youth’s life was smooth.
That’s why he hesitated yesterday.
On one hand, he rationally told himself that no kind of love or marriage lasts forever; but on the other hand, he was overjoyed when he heard Shen Xingsui’s confession.
All signs seemed to point that… he was indeed, in love with him.
Fu Jinxiao was lost in his thoughts for quite some time, only swirling the wine on his hand from time to time. Seeing this, Shen Minglang let the actor to ferment his thoughts, until he found the answer he was searching for.
But it seems that Fu Jinxiao was trapped by something. So, Shen Minglang said, “Instead of hesitating, you might as well change your mind.”
Fu Jinxiao immediately raised his head, “What?”
“If one day he is with someone else, then you just bear with it. If one day he marries someone else, again, you just bear with it. If one day, he says that he no longer likes you, and has moved on to another person… you just bear with it.”
Fu Jinxiao was speechless.
Shen Minglang smiled. “You can give up. It’s also a choice, no?”
Fu Jinxiao fell into deep thought. His face became more and more serious, and finally, his eyes gradually sank, the usual fake smile disappeared. His gentle demeanour disappeared, leaving the decisive and domineering young man, full of danger. “I can’t accept that outcome.”
Shen Minglang nodded. “That’s it.”
When Fu Jinxiao thought of such a scene, he burst into flames. Compared with the little hesitation he previously had, he was furious when he imagined such a possibility.
Seeing that he finally understood, Shen Minglang finally got to the point, “So who is that person you like?”
Fu Jinxiao didn’t verbally answer. He only gave his friend a very… suspicious look.
He looked… kinda cautious?
Guilty?
Shen Minglang’s bad premonition became stronger and stronger, “I know him.”
Fu Jinxiao curled his lips, “Maybe, even very familiarly.”
Shen Minglang had already put the wine glass back on the table, pushed his glasses and said, “As long as it’s not Suisui, everything is easy to talk about.”
“Really?”
Fu Jinxiao elongated his voice. The smile on the corner of his mouth deepened, and he said very slowly,”Then…”
“it may not be easy to say.”
“…”
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