Chapter 121

The world suddenly became silent, and Lu Zihan stayed there. She couldn't listen to their conversation any more... She just thought about the paternity test thrown out by Shen Xiaoman.

Although, this result she had guessed before... Can hear and guess face to face is really different.

Something ran through his heart so hard that Lu Zihan's almost painful soul seemed to be pulled away

Holding the stair handrail hand is full of sweat, feel a burst of pain in his waist, the lower abdomen slightly decorated, pain wave by wave towards her.

It turns out that no matter where she is, she is the redundant one.

Is her existence a mistake?

Lu Zihan didn't know how numb she was. She came out of Lu's house and stood in the rain. She hoped that all this was a dream, but now her mind could not be clearer.

Gu murchi's resolution, so loud words: "let's divorce!"

And Shen Xiaoman's statement full of hints, all of which will knock her down.

I thought I could be stronger, but the reality is so cruel

The rain wet Lu Zihan's hair and ran down his cheek... I couldn't tell whether it was tears or rain.

In the torrential rain, Lu Zihan's vision is a little blurred, but the pain in her abdomen reminds her that she is not alone now.

Xing Tian sits in the car, holding the steering wheel, looking at Lu Zihan standing in the rain and Gu Mochi sitting on one side. His face was solemn and sad. Xing Tian had never seen such an expression on Gu Mochi's face.

Gu Shao has always been a calm, introverted, iron fisted style, Taishan collapse in front of the main color does not change. But... In the face of Lu Zihan, he can't be calm.

Rain with cold wind along the half open window, cold rain hit his face, as if Lu Zihan's tears at the moment, also mixed with her breath.

"Gu Shao, why don't you go down and have a look. Young lady, she... "Xing Tian said this, a little regret, no doubt once again poked in Gu murchi's pain.

He knew how helpless and painful Gu Shaoxia's decision was.

Gu closed his eyes slightly, as if struggling in pain

Can't give her warmth and rely on, why tangle again, will only make her more painful. I believe she will stand up again and find the direction of life. After all, he can't give her anything now. After all, it's up to her.

"Drive..." Gu murchi light mouth.

In the rain wind line, Lu Zihan's figure disappears little by little in Gu Mochi's reluctant sight, with deep regret and nostalgia at each eye.

Lu Zihan, who is standing in the rain at the moment, doesn't know that Gu murchi has been watching her in silence not far away, and then makes the final farewell to her.

Perhaps, only such a silent ending between them is the best... He should not have been greedy and thought that everything was under control. In the end, it was her

Lu Zihan's skirt was all wet by the rain, and now it was sticky on her body, and the cold rain came towards her thin body.

Can't get in the rain like this again, otherwise the child in the stomach must be unable to keep... There is a voice in the heart constantly reminding Lu Zihan.

Now, this child is Lu Zihan's only motivation and hope to live.

She didn't go back to her former apartment, where she and Gu murchi seemed to be left... The only place to go was the hotel. Although she didn't want to go to a place where she was not angry, she was completely homeless now.

After a hot bath, Lu Zihan felt a little warm.

Lying on the soft and wide bed, Lu Zihan was tired and had no strength

"Baby, I'm sorry..." Lu Zihan murmured to himself, but his consciousness was a little bit blurred, and finally fell into a deep sleep.

The pain is still going on. Scenes of heavy memories are like movie replays, which are constantly staged in her dreams, both real and illusory.

In his confused sleep, he seemed to hear the telephone ring, suddenly opened his eyes, and was stung by the light of the huge crystal lamp on the top of the shed.

Tears rolled down his cheeks and his eyes ached. Lu Zihan subconsciously put his hand in his eyes.

The phone is still ringing, but I have to take my cell phone. It's a string of strange phone numbers

Hesitated for a moment, but answered.

Time seemed to stop at this moment. Only a faint breath could be heard on the phone. No one spoke. After a long period of silence, Lu Zihan hung up.

Is that you Murch, is that you? Since she decided to abandon her, why did she still call... Lu Zihan covered her face with a quilt and burst into tears, as if to vent her anger and sadness.

Gu murchi gently put down the phone, picked up the side of the glass, the glass of the remaining red wine to drink.

There was bitterness in his mouth, like the smell of tears... When he got to his stomach, it was like poison, burning his internal organs, and all of them began to ache.

In the end, even listening to her voice became a luxury... Because he missed her so much, because he couldn't control it, he felt as if his heart had been hollowed out for the first time.

Losing her is like losing the center of gravity. Let him feel lonely for the first time, life has nothing.

The night slowly engulfs the lonely people a little bit, and the wounded heart can no longer heal. It has been painful until numbness, pain until there is no hope

After only two days in the hotel, Lu Zihan recovered a little, so she made up her mind to leave

There is no more concern for her, no more relatives, only the baby in her belly, is her blood.

No matter what, she will stick to it for the child, even though there is only one person ahead. She went to a hospital again and had a birth examination... Instead of looking for Jianmo, she was afraid of meeting all the people and things that could think of him.

Although Lu Zihan's body is very weak, but the child is still very competitive, healthy stay in her stomach. Probably God's arrangement, do not want to let her leave alone, at least this child is her hope.

After booking a ticket to Manhattan, Lu Zihan's only concern is Lu Beibei, who is a compatriot of flesh and blood.

Even if they don't have the surname Lu, they are still relatives and their mother's children

Lu Zihan is most worried about Lu Beibei. She doesn't know if she can come back after this journey. The city is full of sad memories.

Lu Beibei's mental condition is not good, but the police and doctors in the drug treatment center say that it is already very good. Looking at his empty and hopeless eyes overlooking the distance outside the window, Lu Zihan tried to hold back the tears in his eyes.

"To the north, I'm going..." Lu Zihan's mouth was astringent. "I should have listened to you. It was a mistake to come back. Never, I should not earn anything... "

Sniff, not let the dense in the eyes overflow, Lu Zihan deep breath said: "I wait for you to come out, how to contact me, you know..."

Looking at Lu Beibei's emptiness as if he had pulled away his soul, Lu Zihan's heart was bitter... There was guilt, helplessness and despair.

Lu Zihan didn't dare to stay more. She didn't even have the time limit. She didn't dare to stay more. She had experienced too much separation, and she didn't dare to bear such a pain.

After leaving the drug treatment center, Lu Zihan went back to the hotel to pick up his luggage and went to the airport. She didn't want to worry about her long journey without seeing her off

"Goodbye..." the bitter tears fell to his lips, and Lu Zihan wiped them with his hands. She didn't want to cry any more. She felt as if she had drained all her tears in the past few days.

Since you choose to leave quietly, let go of everything. Even if it's for the baby in his stomach, even if he never loved himself, so what? Anyway, now they have nothing to do with each other.

Lu Zihan rented a small apartment in downtown Manhattan. He thought that if he changed the environment, he would forget the pain and make his mood better.

However, tears have become her routine, sometimes a person to eat, or go shopping in the supermarket, tears will flow down involuntarily.

My heart seems to be full of dark clouds, and I will cry at any time, even if I have no reason, I will wake up in the middle of the night and cry alone until dawn.

Those memory fragments in his mind make Lu Zihan crazy. The more he tries to forget, the more profound and clear his memory is.

That kind of pain is like a blunt knife, all the time in her heart on the top of the cut, blood dripping, let her pain.

The already weak body is worse, and the reaction to pregnancy is stronger day by day.

Every day can only have two or three hours of sleep, the rest of the time, always suffering from those painful memories... Lu Zihan often sat there all night, facing the chaos of the night sleepless.

The doctor prescribed the drugs to regulate her mood during pregnancy, which could not relieve her symptoms. Moreover, it became more and more serious, and she was finally diagnosed with depression

Because of the child in his stomach, Lu Zihan can't take drugs for depression. He can only rely on seeing a psychologist to relieve his illness

However, the effect is not obvious. She often falls into a world by herself. Lu Zihan feels that she is about to collapse and be destroyed.

Every day, like a walking corpse, she is in the most common state of being muddled. Sometimes she can't even hear someone talking to her in front of her.

"Miss, you lost your bag. miss! Miss

Lu Zihan didn't hear the cry of the people behind him. He walked alone in the empty corridor. Her back is like a ghost, floating in front of her. If it is night, she will think that she has met a ghost!

Until someone grabbed her arm, Lu Zihan stopped and looked up. In front of my eyes, I saw a pretty face, obviously a Chinese. Lu Zihan has no emotion in his eyes. He calmly looks at the man in front of him