Chapter 187

"Didn't you feel sick when you were with that Rongsheng?" Gu's eyes look very clear, but he doesn't know what he's talking about, even he can't control his behavior at the moment.

But because of that pair of gloomy and cold eyes, it looks so sober, not a bit drunk

He said these words, just like a sharp knife, stabbed into Lu Zihan's heart.

"Ah..." Lu Zihan just sneered and didn't say anything. She didn't know whether she was laughing or laughing at herself.

"Gu murchi, you are still so self righteous!" Lu Zihan only felt that her heart was cold. Maybe she shouldn't have any expectations for him from the beginning.

Is that what he is? When will you worry about her feelings?

Always only think that what he did is right, his arrangement is the best... Others can only listen.

Ah... Gu Mochi, it was like this four years ago, and it will be like this four years later.

"I think I'm right?" Gu's performance is not like just now. If you can still feel that he is drunk just now, then his appearance makes you feel that he is sober.

In addition to the smell of wine, the tone of his voice was a little unclear. He was totally different from just now.

But at this time, Lu Zihan has no mind to judge whether he is drunk or not. She just wants to protect herself, put on layers of armor, and then wrap herself up. She will never let Gu murchi stab her again.

She just looked at him coldly and didn't speak. This attitude was undoubtedly the fuse that ignited him

He had no reason to speak for a long time, and his hands trembled to clamp down on Lu Zihan. Although his strength did not increase, it made Lu Zihan feel that his bones were going to be broken.

"Isn't it?" Gu chuckled. His eyes were as thick as ink. He could not see clearly what kind of emotion was hidden in the deep darkness.

He just laughed and humiliated her word by word, "how can you sleep with other men after sleeping with me? Well

Lu Zihan's eyes hurt and tears almost burst out of her eyes, but she breathed deeply and stifled those almost uncontrollable tears back.

Just tears can hold back, but in an instant suffered heavy heart how to do?

Pain can't breathe... Pain almost just want to roll up, nothing to see, nothing to listen to

But his words still fall in the ear, hit in the heart.

"Han'er... Now you've become like this." Gu murchi is smiling, but his voice is low but bewitching, but now his every word, every word, is almost a knife to human life.

"Can't I satisfy you?" Gu murchi laughed again, and his deep laughter seemed to have infinite sadness.

He didn't know why he said this, but once those thoughts appeared in his mind, he would almost crush the whole person.

He couldn't control himself, as if he didn't speak out the pain in his heart at the moment, and let her accompany him to pain and sink together... He seemed unable to get salvation.

If he is still a little sober at the moment, if he is really as clear as it seems, maybe... He won't say this, even if he doubts, but he will choose to believe it.

But there's no such thing as maybe

At the moment, he just wanted to hold her together and let the sharp stabs on both of them stab them.

"You're such an asshole." Lu Zihan finally opened his mouth. His voice was hoarse and trembling.

She's really stupid... She's laughing heartlessly at herself at the moment. That's what she worried about all day

This is Gu murchi, who cares deeply even though she has been injured completely.

That's what happened to her... Late at night because she was worried about him and wanted to go out and look for him.

"I am... I am." Gu Mochi seems to pay no attention to Lu Zihan's scolding.

His strength converged a little, fondled Lu Zihan's pale face, and then gently kissed her cheek, nose tip and lip corner.

His movements were gentle and pitiful, as if he was dealing with the most precious treasure in the world, as if he was afraid that she would be broken with a little effort.

But no matter how gentle his actions are, his words are still so cold and heartless.

"Since anyone can... Then don't refuse me," Gu said with a cruel smile. "I think I'm better than them... I know you better and how to make you happy... Right? Well

He said, warm and ambiguous, but his words put her into hell again and again.

He didn't need her explanation, and maybe he never wanted her to.

Because he didn't even ask... Just arbitrarily believe what his eyes saw, so what is she?

In his heart, what kind of person is she?

Do you know her?

Lu Zihan heard Gu murchi humiliate her like this, but he couldn't cry, and he was too painful to help.

She just silently closed her eyes, heartbroken whispered: "really understand me..."

I really know how to hit her fragile heart the fastest and the most ruthless. I really know how to make her hurt beyond measure. I really know... How to push her into the dark abyss again and again.

"Han'er, you are mine." Gu murchi's voice is more and more hoarse and dark.

He so easily imprisoned Lu Zihan in his arms, looked at her eyes, but it seemed that he could not see the despair and pain inside.

Maybe at this moment, Gu thinks that only in this way can he control the woman in front of him, and only in this way can she be his han'er.

He took Lu Zihan into the room, put her on the soft big bed, and then laughed low, "you are mine, only mine... You know?"

Lu Zihan didn't resist. If resistance is useful, how can they get to this point?

And why resist? Lu Zihan just closed her eyes in despair, she wanted to remember, remember the humiliation of this moment, remember the scars and pain he added to her again and again.

She has to remember... Hard.

Almost at dawn, Gu murchi fell asleep. Lu Zihan was still staring at the room lit up in the dark.

She thought she was badly hurt, she thought she wanted to cry, but she didn't shed a tear from the beginning to the end.

Maybe... It's progress.

Lu Zihan's lips were raised, and then he got up and went into the bathroom.

She twisted the cold water to the maximum, and the cold water hit her violently, just for a while... Her whole body was cold, and her skin showed a cyan color.

Her lips were dark blue, and her whole body was shivering in the cold water

But she didn't hold herself tightly, didn't turn on the hot water, just felt the piercing cold, and then stood in the water, let the water wash her body.

I don't know how long it took, so long that she couldn't feel the warm breath of her body, so long that she was so cold that her whole body was stiff, even the action of turning off the water seemed so stiff.

Shaking, she turned off the cold water, dried herself with a bath towel, dressed, and walked out of the room with wet hair.

The moment she left the room, a smile rose from the corner of her lips. If it wasn't for her pale face, if it wasn't for her trembling body, if it wasn't for her purple lips, she looked a little scared

As usual, she greets every morning when Tangtang wakes up with a smile.

Tangtang is woken up by Lu Zihan and put on her clothes. It's like every day before, she didn't look at Lu Zihan's face carefully.

Because she was still sleepy, she half closed her eyes at the mercy of Lu Zihan. She rubbed her eyes and asked vaguely, "Mom... Has uncle Gu got through?"

Lu Zihan just slightly stiff, and then said with a smile: "well."

"Really Tangtang is sleepless at this moment. She looks at Lu Zihan in surprise. Then she sees Lu Zihan's pale face and purple lips. She is startled and says, "Mom... What's the matter with you? Are you sick?"

Then he reached out his little hand and touched Lu Zihan's face. He exclaimed, "it's so cool!"

Lu Zihan gently took away Tangtang's hand and said with a smile, "Mom just took a bath, and then accidentally blew the wind. I'm afraid you'll be late. Haven't you blown your hair yet? It's normal to be a little cold. Mom's OK. Get dressed and have breakfast soon. "

Tangtang nodded in disbelief. She felt that something was wrong, but she was still young and didn't know how to distinguish adult's lies and cover up.

After dressing, Tangtang finished washing. Then he was held and sat on the dining table. While eating breakfast, he asked Lu Zihan, "Mom... Can you call uncle Gu now?"

Lu Zihan's smile was slightly stiff. Tangtang didn't seem to notice it. Then he said, "I want to apologize to him quickly. In this way... Uncle Gu will be less angry for a while and forgive me earlier."

Lu Zihan's heart aches, but he has to smile.

Gu Mochi... Why do you get the love of Tangtang?

How to be forgiven?

Although she thought so, Lu Zihan's smile didn't fade. She said with a smile, "well, you have to tell him by yourself."

"Ah?" Tangtang asked: "so call quickly?"

Lu Zihan pauses and looks at Tangtang's bright and expectant eyes. She says with a smile: "Uncle Gu was drunk last night. His mother said he brought him back. He is sleeping in his room now..."

"Ah! Uncle Gu is here! " Tangtang screams. Before Lu Zihan answers, she cheers. Then she quickly gets off the stool and runs to Lu Zihan's room.

Because I was so happy, I forgot that Lu Zihan was there, and I cried out: "Dad... Dad, get up!"

Lu Zihan's smile disintegrates at this moment. She listens to Tangtang's cry, looks at Tangtang's cheerful back and tells herself that it's just for Tangtang.

Gu murchi, if Tang Tang doesn't like him that much

If he's not Tangtang's father

So she really doesn't know what terrible things she will do this morning, but it's just the beginning, isn't it?

Gu murchi, he added on her body, all the scars, all the pain, all the humiliation... She will ask for back a little bit.