Volume 1 - CH 20

The second half of the date

“Heyー, can you do ahh to me?”

“Eh, I definitely don’t want to though.”

We came to a food court in the amusement park for lunch.

Tachibana ordered an omurice, while I ordered udon noodles with meat.

Well, if you ask me why I chose udon noodles with meat, I don’t particularly have any reason. To avoid this kind of situation is also one reason. This situation that asked me to feed her with an “Ahh”.

That’s because you can’t do that with noodles, you see!

“Ehー, isn’t it fine!”

“I would understand if you wanted a mouthful, or asking me to feed you with an “Ahh”, but isn’t that your omurice? You can eat it yourself.”

Oh my God! This is perfect!

I’m completely safe now.

“No, you see. Because that’s just an excuse to get you to feed me with an “Ahh” or “Ahn”. The truly important thing is the act of feeding me itself.”

Yes, I knowー

“All right, okay. I got it……………Here, Ahnn”

I took away the spoon, scooped out a spoonful of omurice, and presented it to Koyomi.

“Guh……..!…………A, Ahn.”

While she was turning red, she looked very happy eating the omurice.

“Th, Then…………He, here………..”

Koyomi also scooped out a spoonful of omurice, and brought it in front of me.

It seems like she wants me to eat it.

“I told you already………….If you are embarrassed then you shouldn’t”

“Sh, shut up! ……….Eat it quickly………..!”

“Yes yes……”

For the time being I put the spoon on my mouth, and tasted the omurice. Un, this is delicious.

“Come to think of it, this is an indirect kiss……is it okay?”

“In, In-in-indirect kiss!? ……………I don’t know what you’re talking about!……….Of course I’m fine, I’m fine!”

“………..Your way of speaking is weird you know?”

For the time being, since I won’t like it when my udon cools down, I’ll eat it silently.

Koyomi didn’t come back for a while.

“Un, that was very delicious!”

“Yeah.”

“Then, since we had our break, let’s go somewhere!”

“Un. Where are we going?”

“Hmmー, since we just ate, we shouldn’t do anything too intenseー”

“You’re right, is there something easygoing?”

“Hmmー,………..how about the merry-go-round?”

“Aah, the horse one……….that’s okay I think?”

“Yosh! Let’s go immediately since we’ve already decided!”

“Yes yes”

And like that, we go to the merry-go-round.

Since there were only small kids and lovers, we could ride it easily since it was empty.

But, the pace is quite slow, so it’s not really fun.

“Ahahaha! …………Even though we’ve grown up, it’s fun to ride it together huh!”

“Th, that’s right…..”

Really…………

I don’t think this has anything to do with who you are riding with though?

This is only fun for kids only right……….

“Where should we go next!”

When Koyomi was browsing the pamphlet, one of the stores caught my eye.

Cre-, a crepe shop!?

“The time for afternoon snacks is pretty close, so why don’t we go eat some crepes?”

“Eh? ………..Ahaha………….You really like crepes huhー”

“Well yeah, let’s go quickly.”

“Eh!……….Wait, ………………why is it only at times like this that you move so quicklyー!”

She said something behind me but I couldn’t hear it. I turn towards the crepe shop, and walked faster.

We arrived at a so-called sales car, and there was quite a line of people waiting to get in, probably because it was so popular.

“Heyーheyー, won’t you feed me with an “Ahn” again?”

“I won’t give you mine, but if it’s Koyomi’s then it’s fine.”

“As usual, you won’t give yours………”

“Haahh………….Then do you want to buy a separate one for that?”

“Eh? Is it fine?!………I want to buy it!”

“Okay, then go take a seat first.”

“U, Un! Thank you!”

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There weren’t any particularly important events that happened after that, and time passes us by.

Perhaps she was too scared, but Koyomi stubbornly refused to enter the haunted house.

When it’s about time to go home and I was about to prepare to head home……

“Hey! Let’s ride the standard classic for a date, the Ferris wheel!”

“Well, it’s fine I guess…”

“Ohー! It’s rising even higher!”

“……..The scenery is unexpectedly beautiful”

“Hey, can I sit next to you?”

I am currently sitting across Koyomi.

There wasn’t any particular reasons for me to refuse, and there’s enough space for two people,

I said, “Go ahead” and Koyomi moved and sat down next to me.

“………….Thank you……the first date today on our day off, it’s very fun…”

After a moment of silence, Koyomi muttered that

“Me too, it was fun”

“Is that so?………So it was fun…..”

“………………….What’s the matter?”

“…………..It’s going to be one month since we started dating in 5 days.”

“You’re right…”

Aah, so it’s about that………

It must be scary from Koyomi’s side.

Because this might be the last date that we have…

And like this, the day that we spent playing all day will end now.

Suddenly, when I looked to my side, I saw there were a few tears.

“Can you………….. hug me…….for a while………?”

“……Nn, go ahead…”

I spread my arms out, and assumed a pose to accept her.

Then she rested her chin on my shoulder and hugged me.

I returned her hug.

Her body is much thinner and slimmer than I thought it would be…

She shuddered slightly, and I heard a faint cry after that.

I’m sure it’s my own fault for not trying to do more.

“What’s the matter?”

Even though I knew, I still asked.

I asked that with the most tender voice I could give.

“Uun. It’s nothing……………I just had too much fun………”

“I see……….”

I just said that, and separated our body. After she wiped off her tears, she tell me with a smile.

“Let’s go on a date too next time!”

She had a beautiful, gentle, and somewhat fragile smile that would surely make many men fall in love with her.

It wasn’t a suggestion or a promise.

Those words were her determination, her hopes.

And that’s why I couldn’t reply to her words and could only smile.

On the ride home, she was probably too excited, or maybe she was just so tired that she rested her head on my shoulder and dozed off.

Her face was covered with tears from her eyes, and she was muttering in her sleep.

“….I……love Kouyou……….I don’t want……….to……..break up”

It was something that she didn’t tell me until the very end.

Aah, Koyomi must have realized it……

That I wasn’t in love with her…

I thought of what I should do.

………..I’ll do the same in the end.

When I saw Koyomi in her casual clothes, when she arched her neck, when she smiled at me on the Ferris wheel, and this sad-looking sleeping face.

I thought she was cute.

But that’s all.

It wasn’t a feeling of love or anything.

No, that’s wrong.

The truth is, I do have some feelings for her,

But I don’t have the slightest desire to have that kind of relationship with Koyomi.

I looked at Koyomi’s face.

Why, why is it me…………

If….If she confessed to another person………

Then she probably won’t have to be hurted right?

For a while, I regretted accepting that confession at the time.

If only I had rejected her at the time………

It can’t be helped. This feelings of mine,

The only thing I can do is reject Koyomi so that I hurted her as little as possible and I should just put up with it for another 5 days…………