Volume 1 - CH 6.2

The things that Ayana told me about her past were things that I really didn’t know.

I wondered how small the world was for Ayana, the time she had spent with Shu and his family since she was a child, and the way even her mother had forced her to do things.

“I’m sorry. I’m sorry for talking about the past for so long, even though you know about it to some extent.”

“I know….right”

I was not surprised that she said that.

I was indeed stunned by her story, but for some reason my mind took it in stride and processed the information.

It was as if my mind had convinced itself that this was indeed the truth and that I had known it from the beginning.

(……? This is ……)

As I listen to Ayana’s story, and as I hold her in my arms now that I have finished listening, a certain memory comes up in my mind.

It was what Ayana had told me earlier, and my encounter with Ayana came back to me vividly.

“……Aah right. It really was.”

Suddenly, my memories came back to me, but they were transformed into my life’s experiences.

Despite the fact that it was someone else’s memory, it became mine to the point that I was convinced that it had always been my memory.

“Towa, what’s wrong?”

I am me, and yet, as I said before, I certainly feel as if something is linked with Towa.

Perhaps that’s why I feel more protective of Ayana than ever before.

I want to keep an eye on her, and I want her to smile like she does now, from the bottom of her heart.

“Ayana.”

I put my hand on her cheek.

I don’t know why I decided to do that, but when she saw my hand on her cheek, her eyes were moistened as if she was anticipating something.

“…… I…”

“Eh?”

I honestly thought of them as nothing more than characters in a game,…… and no, there’s still a little of that.

However, I am not the only one who is moving with a will, and these women are human beings living in this world, no different from me.

“…… Ayana…”

“What is it?”

You really are a cute little girl, you know that?”

“…… Hahiii!?”

Her expression changed from one to the other, and she was really cute.

It’s no surprise that she was my favorite character from the time I was playing the game, but still, when I look at the girl Ayana Otonashi again, that’s the impression that comes to mind.

(….I don’t seek the meaning of being reborn in this world. But the only thing I want to do now is, I don’t want to make this girl …… Ayana cry)

I think I’ve been thinking about the meaning of my rebirth into this world for a long time.

I was thinking that there must be some meaning to it, but because I was sure that if I went on like this, it would surely be the same as the ending of that game, I was thinking that I would lead her to a happy ending.

(I’m Towa Yukishiro,…… but I’m not just a character that shapes this world. Then I will do what I want to do. I want to protect the beings I want to protect with my own hands. I want Ayana to keep smiling.)

And if I could be selfish about one more thing…… I would like to stay with this girl

“…..I see”

When I think about it, this may be the first time I have felt such a strong desire to be by her side.

Of course, to a certain extent I am being influenced by Towa’s consciousness, but this is the first time I have strongly wished to be by her side on my own volition.

After staring at Ayana for a while, I decided to calm down a bit and went to the refrigerator to get a drink.

“…… This.”

I was still in the same position, however, and I was able to face my feelings, which seemed to take my mind off things.

I tried to stand up, but I stupidly broke my knees and fell, pushing Ayana down with me.

“I-I’m sorry Ayana…..?!”

I immediately apologized and looked for something suspicious about her, but a touch on my right hand stopped me in my tracks.

It felt so soft and warm in the palm of my hand. …… So my right hand was placed on Ayana’s ample bosom.

“……Towa-kun.”

“……”

Let go hand, I thought, but my hand wouldn’t leave Ayana’s chest.

When my hand touches her chest like that, even the thumping of her heart can be felt through my palm.

It may be a strange thing to think about at a time like this, but it made me think that she is after all alive.

“Ayana, I want you.”

I said that much and I huffed.

I corrected myself and tried to move away from her, thinking that it wasn’t the right thing to say after pushing her down in an accident, but …… I still didn’t want to move away from her.

Ayana had been blushing and looking unusual earlier, but when she heard my words, she tangled with me using all of her hands and feet.

“It’s okay, Towa-kun. Please do whatever you want to me without thinking about it right now.”

Ayana’s expression was very sexy when she said that.

I was so excited to see Ayana’s face, and I could not help but notice that she had a very gentle and receptive expression on her face, as if she was trying to embrace me.

I brought my face close to Ayana’s lips as she stared at me, and dropped a kiss on those soft lips.

“…..Un…..Chuu”

I can’t remember what it was like in my previous life, but this is definitely the first time I’ve kissed a girl in my life.

I am sure that the slightly salty taste along with the soft texture is because Ayana was crying all the time just a while ago.

“It’s a little bit salty, maybe because you were crying?”

“…… It’s because of that thing that happened. Towa-kun made me cry, so please take responsibility♪”

I laugh at Ayana who has blocked my escape route by asking me to take responsibility.

To be honest, there is still a lot for me to know, and most importantly, there are probably more hidden things between me and Ayana.

But for now, I just want to love the girl in front of me.

I lay my body on top of Ayana’s, driven by the love for her that overflowed in my heart, and following my own feelings of wanting to protect her.

After some time, we were naturally naked and embracing each other.

“…..Fufu”

“What’s wrong?”

“No, I knew I liked doing it this way.”

Ehehe, Ayana laughed and I stroked her head.

I thought she was like a cat as I watched her narrow her eyes pleasantly.

“You look like a cat, Ayana.”

“A cat? Nyaa~n♪”

“……”

“Oh, did that work on you? Did I find a new area to explore?

“Don’t call it a new area to explore.”

Ayana’s smiling face is just so enthusiastic, but I chuckle and think, well, that’s the same for me.

“Akemi is still not home yet, huh?”

“She said she was going to be a little late. I think it will be another hour or so.”

“Is that so? Then we can stay like this a little longer.”

Ayana buried her face in my chest again.

I was a little surprised to see Ayana’s naked body, but when I looked at her face again ……, I was honestly impressed with her style, which is both beautiful and erotic.

We hugged each other for a while and then decided to get dressed and wait for my mom to come home.

“Towa-kun.”

“What’s wrong?””

While we were relaxing together like this, Ayana suddenly asked me this question.

“Could you please try to call me by every possible name you can think of?”

“Eh? …… sure.”

I was puzzled by the question, which was more cryptic than meaningful, but I followed her words and tried to say what I would call Ayana.

“Ayana,…… Ayana-san,…… Ayana-chan,…… honey?”

“…… Pfft!”

“Don’t laugh!”

I know “Honey” was a bit too much, but please don’t laugh!

Ayana said she was sorry, but her shoulders were shaking, and it seemed that my words had hit the nail on the head.

She laughed more than I expected and was on the verge of giggling, but Ayana took my hand and continued.

“Towa-kun has always been like that. You never call me “you,” you know? I know you might say I’m just being self-conscious, but even the way you call me makes me feel like you think I’m important, and that makes me happy.”

“Ah~…… no, you can’t call a girl ‘you’ like that, right?”

I don’t know if they were very close, but it was impossible for me to say “you” to a girl as close to me as Ayana.

I asked a similar question a while ago,……, but I guess Towa-kun never changes, right? You’ve always been so kind to me,……, and I’ll always love you for that.”

Ayana then kissed me on the cheek.

Despite the fact that there was probably no deep meaning to the question she had just asked me, I was still happy to hear Ayana say so in response to my own answer.

Let’s bask in the afterglow for a while longer.

Feeling her presence close by.