Chapter 203

What does despair feel like?

Suxiaomi can't describe it, but she is experiencing it now.

After she was rescued by Shen Jibei that day, for several days in a row, she locked herself in her room and didn't go anywhere. Even if Edward came to find her, she refused.

"I want to have a rest. Can you go out first?" There is no emotion in the cold words. Su Xiaomi is surprised that she should say such words to her life-saving benefactor.

But there is no denying that she regretted being rescued.

"I'm sorry." Edward did not leave immediately. He stood still and apologized to her inexplicably. Su Xiaomi was confused and finally glanced at him.

There is no life in the clear eyes, like a lifeless work of art, although beautiful, but empty.

If it goes on like this, she will really break down.

Su Xiaomi's situation, she knows better than anyone, but she does not have the courage to manage so much, she is now curious about him, "why do you apologize to me?"

She was the one who took him to swim, she was the one who took the initiative to jump down, and she was the one who drowned. It was because of him that she survived until now.

So, why did you save her?

"I shouldn't let you jump when your mood hasn't stabilized. I'm sorry that the shadow caused by the shipwreck hasn't disappeared." Edward took the trouble to apologize and explained to her patiently.

He sat down by the bed and watched her wrap the quilt around her body, only showing a pretty but pale face. He looked at him carefully with deep eyes, like a child testing the reaction of a stranger.

He was so focused on watching, Su Xiaomi no matter how thick skinned are also a bit unbearable, she pouted, heart suddenly burning nameless fire, "I said nothing to do with you, are my own cheap, I overestimate myself."

She thought she could spend her whole life here in peace, and now it seemed like a joke.

In this life, ouming and Su Guangzu will accompany her through life.

Unless, she can forgive him, however, Su Guangzu has become impossible, he died.

"It's about me, otherwise how can I feel guilty?" Edward was very persistent and gentle. He spoke in a light tone, for fear that he might hurt her accidentally.

Even Bailu knows how devoted he is to Su Xiaomi, not to mention Su Xiaomi himself.

But somehow, the better he treated her, the more upset she was.

In this world, no one can believe it.

"Enough! I said it's none of your business! Are you trying to force me away? Ah? Then throw me back into the sea to feed the fish! Anyway, no one will care about my life or death! " Su Xiaomi suddenly stood up, stepped back two steps, and didn't stop until her calf was on the head of the bed.

She was so excited that she hit Edward with a pillow.

It's crazy!

Edward has no response, but Bailu is calm, she immediately rushed up to block, and sternly scolded, "how can you be so unreasonable to your husband? Do you know who he is? "

If Edward really investigates, Su Xiaomi's ten lives are not enough to compensate!

"Come on, don't scold her. I remember I didn't let you do that." Before Su Xiaomi makes a response, Edward calmly stops Bailu's behavior and asks her to leave the room first.

No one is allowed to hurt Su Xiaomi.

Although Bailu was shocked, but this was her husband's order. Her only response was to say, "I understand. I'm sorry."

When Bailu leaves, Su Xiaomi has calmed down. She still holds a pillow in her hand. As soon as she takes off, the pillow immediately slides down.

"Yes, I'm sorry..."

She wanted to really apologize, but at this time sobbing, she is really useless.

Feeling the heat in her eyes, Su Xiaomi knows that her eyes must be red. She quickly raises her hand to block it. In fact, she really doesn't want to shed tears. It's still this inexplicable vent.

She did not dare to tell Edward that when she was in the water, she remembered what she had said to him that night.

Yes, she took Edward as oumingjue and pestered him.

"I miss you so much." This sentence flashed through my mind like a curse on her.

Even now, she can't forget the scene at that time, and even if Edward didn't ask carefully, he guessed eight out of ten, nine out of ten. He didn't know what else to say except for heartache.

Reaching for her, he said softly, "come here."

Su Xiaomi still covers his eyes with his arm and shakes his head. His voice is mixed with a slight sound of aspiration. "No, I don't want to be shameful in front of you."

No need for him to make fun of her. She also knows that she is just like a kid who plays tricks now.

But Edward didn't mind. He stood up and grabbed her hand, pulled her to his side and sat down. "You can cry if you want. I can understand how you feel."

I miss that person very much, but I can't go back to that person again. It's really hard.

It's normal that she can't hold on for a while.

"Don't cry. I've cried too many times. I'll be blind if I cry any more. How can I make a play like that?" Su Xiaomi finally put down her hand, she said, with a smile.

I don't know how long it will take to completely forget the fear that came from her heart.

But at least now, it's not so easy for Su Xiaomi, and what she can do now is to pretend to live as if nothing had happened.

Su Xiaomi's mood went so fast that Edward was surprised and more gratified.

He reached for her messy long hair and smoothed it for her. He said slowly, "since you don't want to cry, smile more. Then we'll go down to dinner. The chef is not used to it when you're away these days."

What she didn't know was that Edward's heart had been hanging in the air.

It was not until seeing her smile that the thrill of fear stopped tormenting him.

"I'm sorry." After su Xiaomi gets out of bed, Edward looks at her thin back, blue eyes, emotional complex, in addition to melancholy, is guilt.

If he could be with her earlier, she would not have to force herself to grow up.

……

Su Xiaomi's willingness to walk out of the house has become the big news on the island. After all, the employees on the island are serving Su Xiaomi and Edward, and it's not surprising that they are regarded as the center.

I thought her mood would be stable, but it was far from simple.

Whether it's dinner or any recreational activities, Su Xiaomi seldom smiles, and even has the same attitude towards Edward. She doesn't have the heart to force a smile rather than coldness.

She is so tired.

But Edward doesn't seem to mind her maintaining the current state. No matter what happens, he will be with her. This is not a promise. He is fulfilling it now.

Put off all the work and stay on the island with her.

Until Su Xiaomi was also impatient, finally after he followed him into the room, she turned around and glared at him, "are you enough? Don't follow me any more. I said I'm ok. "

Here she is again. She has a strange temper.

Seeing that a certain woman was about to blow up her hair again, Edward was not angry, but just a smile. When he bowed his head, the light fell down, and his whole body seemed to be covered with a faint halo. The shadow covered his handsome face, which made him feel more mysterious.

Suddenly, he calmed down and pointed to her back, "well, I'll take this gift as an apology, OK?"

Having said that, Su Xiaomi subconsciously turned to look behind him. At the same time, there was a loud noise outside the window, followed by fireworks blooming in the vast sky, gorgeous but unreal.

He thought for a long time that the only thing that can coax girls is beautiful.

To tell you the truth, Su Xiaomi's first reaction was just a surprise, not any surprise.

But when she subconsciously turned to the sky outside the window, she was really amazed.

"It's beautiful." She blurted out that Su Xiaomi was watching, her eyes full of fireworks, her lips opened, her face full of surprise.

It's not easy to please her. Edward's mood at the moment is even more happy than the negotiation of cooperation. He raised the corner of his mouth and asked her softly, "as long as you like, I can have people prepare fireworks every day, even in the daytime."

Do you understand?

He did so much just to tell her that he cared about her.

So don't fall back.

Su Xiaomi's heart is naturally grateful to him for such kind treatment. When she looks back, her pale face is set off by the gorgeous light reflected out of the window.

She finally had a smile, and as brilliant as fireworks, "thank you, you are so good, if only I had met you earlier."

It's the same with Ou mingjue and him. She always meets them later. If everything can be met on time, maybe everything will be different.

"I think so, too." Edward was very grateful to her, and the smile was more obvious.

He went to her, her head just can be put on his shoulder, Su Xiaomi simply leaned on his head, while staring at the fireworks outside the glass window, blooming one after another.

Now that she was in the mood, Edward tentatively asked her, "since you like this gift, can you forgive me?"

"I've never said you're sorry for anything that I didn't forgive." Su Xiaomi does not think about it. On the contrary, she feels guilty.

After all, she was willful, and he never changed his view from the beginning to the end.

But Edward didn't care. When he looked at her, his eyes were always moving. "Now that you've forgiven me, can you ask Miss Su to sit down in the restaurant downstairs? I'm really worried that you haven't eaten much these days. "

What.

The feeling is about her stomach.

Although she has some complaints, Su Xiaomi knows his heart well, and is grateful in the end. Even if she feels tired in her heart, she still forces her face to smile, "you all say that, how can I not follow?"

After that, she grabbed his outstretched hand and walked slowly out of bed with her face raised. She looked like a proud little princess.

And Edward's eyes never shifted from her.

"I'm sorry."

He really felt guilty for not being able to protect her in time for so many years.

But how to express this feeling, even if she opened her mouth, she was afraid that she could not accept it.