Chapter 401

"Just arrived." Fang Ze took the jujube cake into the room and said to Chen Qin, "your nephew bought you a jujube cake from a very famous store. He was afraid that the mail would break up, so he let me bring it."

"Come in." Chen Qin saw that Fang Ze was alone, so he stepped aside and let Fang Ze in.

"Sister Chen, since you have come to my place, I'll take you to have some famous snacks here in a few days." Fang Ze walked in while talking.

After entering the house, Fang Ze glanced around the house with an area of more than 100 square meters, but did not find the three demolition offices of husky, Samoye and Alaska, which were kept by Chen Qin.

Chen Qin is a dog lover, which can be seen from the fact that she led her three demolition offices wherever she went in the resort last time.

So Fang Ze believed that since Chen Qin came here to live alone, he would definitely lead the three dogs.

But now Fang Ze can see the traces of the three dogs' lives and the dog bowl, but the three dogs have disappeared.

"Sister Chen, what about your demolition office?" Fang Ze asked.

"Give it away." Chen Qin replied as if nothing had happened, as if this was a very common thing.

"Don't want to raise it?" Fang Ze asked as he put down the jujube cake.

Because he was afraid that Chen Qin didn't like to see strangers, Fang Ze didn't let Lockhart follow him, but asked him to stay on the bench downstairs and read books. Anyway, the distance would not exceed 100 meters. “

”No, because it's impossible. " Chen Qin said, "so I can only give it away?"

Can't raise it?

Before Fang Ze understood Chen Qin's words, he saw Chen Qin reach out and take a piece of jujube cake and feed it into his mouth.

"When did the shop selling jujube pudding across the street become a famous shop?" Chen Qin obviously ate out where this jujube cake was made.

"Maybe it's just that the taste is a little similar. You know, some famous stores now make food that is no different from ordinary small stores." Fang Ze continued to lie.

"Oh." Chen Qin pointed to the bag containing jujube cake in Fangze and asked, "how can the name of the store on the packaging bag be the same?"

"Well." Fang Ze patted his head and remembered that he had forgotten to change the packaging.

"It's Chen Jian who asked you to come to see me for fear that something might happen to me." Chen Qin said and sat on the sofa, then looked at Fang Ze and said, "tell him, I don't need to worry him anymore."

"You won't miss it." Fang Ze felt that Chen Qin's current state was very wrong.

"You know, sometimes living is really a very difficult thing." Chen Qin said to Fangze.

"But if you are not here, your family and friends should be very sad." Fang Ze hurriedly said.

"If it weren't for them, I might have chosen to leave the world." Chen Qin sat on the sofa and said faintly, "I also want to love in the past, and I also want to try to accept the world in the past. But it's really impossible. Eating seems to be a task, and breathing is just a habit. The reason why I still try to live in this world is just because I don't want to disappoint the people who love me."

"After suffering from depression, suffering from depression, for a long time, I think I am living two completely different lives, a person who is always afraid of others. I am afraid that people will see me as I really am, and not everyone thinks I am: a gentle woman who likes pets. In fact, I am not perfect. Under my smile is struggle, under my light is darkness, and under my personality is a deeper layer Times of pain. "

"Some people are afraid that others don't like him, some people may be afraid of heights, and some people may be afraid of death. But for me, a large part of my life is afraid of myself. I'm afraid of the truth, I'm afraid of honesty, and I'm afraid of vulnerability. This fear makes me feel that I'm forced into a corner, and there's only one way out."

Chen Qin slowly spoke his heart word by word, but this made Fang Ze feel more and more afraid.

Many patients with depression, on the surface, look like normal people, and some are even very extroverted. But this is not their true self, this is just their efforts to disguise the appearance.

Depression patients will not easily show their true inner self to others, and they basically won't say their heart to others.

This is why they live in such pain.

If a patient with depression is willing to share his heart with others, either her depression has shown signs of improvement, or it means that she really can't hold on any longer.

"Chen Qin." Fang Ze Qingsheng shouted, "listen, if you feel that you live too tired, it's OK to live less hard. You don't have to give others a better impression. Just like being in the dark, you don't have to find an exit out of here. If you're too tired, rest in the dark. It's better than even the darkness."

"What you and my psychologist said is similar." Chen Qin suddenly laughed and said.

"Because as an outsider, we can only say that. Without depression, we simply can't understand your heart."

"Heart? Every depressed person is a contradictory individual. Every day, it seems that there are two villains fighting in their minds. When they are tired, you can get a moment's rest." Chen Qin pointed to his head and said.

Fang Ze saw that Chen Qin seemed to be better now, and then said, "so are you taking a break now?"

"No, I'm ready for a permanent rest." Chen Qin leaned back his head and lay on the sofa in a big character.

Looking at Chen Qin's current state, Fang Ze felt more and more uneasy.

She stood up and asked Chen Qin, "why do you say that?"

"Because I'm dying. I can't stand living like this anymore. If people really have reincarnation, then I hope I can live well in my next life."

While Chen Qin was talking, Fang Ze suddenly saw a bottle scattered on the ground.

A green bottle.

Fang Ze squatted down and picked up the bottle. Seeing the label outside the bottle, which was almost empty, the whole person instantly fell into an ice cave.

Because the bottle is impressively written: Paraquat!

As if bitten by a snake, Fang Ze threw the bottle on the ground. Looking at Chen Qin, who was still lying there with a smile on his face, Fang Ze asked in horror, "how much did you drink?"

PS: the heating at home is broken. We will update two chapters temporarily, and then update two chapters at twelve o'clock. As compensation, we will continue to work at five o'clock tomorrow.