CH 15

Hero and Hell

Translated by AmaLynne

TN: Damn, translating this chapter really leaves a bad taste in my mouth… And there’s still a chapter like this in a later chapter… I’m really bad with stuff like this >.<

Well, other than that, now it’s from hero girl PoV. Enjoy~

I have become accustomed to being whipped.

Maybe I don’t even feel pain anymore.

I don’t even know if I’m feeling pain anymore.

「…Hey, is this guy okay? She’s only five years old, and she’s still a kid, right?」

「His Eminence the Pope has told me to train this kid and break her heart by hurting her thoroughly. And even if she should die, the《Twelve Holy Apostles》, Gale-sama, will bring her back to life.」

「Hah… The top is thinking of some pretty horrific things. They’re going to hurt this kid and turn her into a weapon… Well, she can become a machine that can kill demons, in other words, she can become what Misery-sama wants, right? She’s a lucky guy when you think about it, isn’t she?」

「Hahaha, no doubt!」

Misery-sama… Goddess of Life and Mercy.

But I don’t believe in that. If she existed, she would be the first one to save me from this place.

Even if there were, she would probably be a helpless goddess who only thinks of herself.

Someone, please rescue me from this place. It doesn’t matter who it is.

It doesn’t matter if it’s a demon or an evil god. As long as you can save me.

This is hell.

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「Oi, wake up…Hero!!」

My day begins at 4 a.m. in a cage with no bedding or bed, with a bucket of water poured over me.

I then leave right after that and train until 8:00 a.m. I eat a tasteless breakfast that only considers nutrition in 10 minutes, and right after that I am punched, kicked, and hit with a sword by the 20 knights who are finally awake here.

「You’re not gonna do it, are you!?」

「Such a sword is not enough to kill the『Demon King』!」

I continue to fight through the bruises and the repeated bad words, and at 12:00 I eat another 10 minutes of food, the same as in the morning, only in increased quantities.

The afternoon is the worst. Someone from the《Twelve Holy Apostles》, one of the country’s most elite military personnel, comes to bully me.

「Today it’s me. Watch and learn, Hero.」

Today’s person is a blonde woman. She was the one people around me called『Edith』.

Edith attacked me repeatedly until the sunset, and then she said,「This is all for the good of humanity. Be thankful for it」. She left me with those words.

My day is not over just because night falls. I will eat the same food again, only in increased quantities, and this time, I will be made to kill a living being.

…At first, it was a rat. From there, it got bigger and bigger, rabbits, cats, and now…

「Let go of me, you son of a bitch! Get the hell off me!!!」

I’m ordered to kill people who have done wrong and have been captured.

If I don’t want to kill them for even one second, they will whip me again and again.

I don’t feel pain anymore, but when I am about to be whipped, I shake all over, and I lose the desire to disobey anyone. I hate that feeling, so I have to kill them.

「N-No! Stop! Don’t do this!」

I swung my dagger at a man I’d never met before and didn’t know what he’d done, who begged for his life… Eventually, the man stopped moving.

Late in the evening, I hear a final sermon from the priest.

He said, Misery-sama is absolute, I am a『Hero』, I am a『weapon』, kill your feelings, have no mercy, kill the demon king, destroy the demon tribe.

I don’t know, but I get the feeling that if the Priest says it, then maybe it is true.

One o’clock in the morning. That is the time I am finally allowed to sleep.

My body aches so much that I would normally want to cry, but I don’t feel it anymore.

The pain and exhaustion have long been forgotten in the six months I’ve been trapped here.

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I am sure I am breaking down.

Maybe soon I won’t even be able to think about anything like this.

I will never be able to live a peaceful life again.

I am a『Hero』. I have to protect the humans.

―――-Why? Why protect the people who hurt me?

I have to defeat the Demon King and bring peace to the world.

―――-Why? What did the Demon King do to me?

I must destroy the demon tribe and make this world what it should be.

―――Why? Who decided that the demon tribe is not needed in this world?

I will soon no longer be able to think about these questions that I have thought about for so many nights.

The thought of it terrifies me, but my tears have long since dried up and won’t come out.

This place is hell.

Someone help me. It doesn’t matter if it’s a demon tribe, a demon king, or an evil god. Help me before my heart is broken.

If help doesn’t come, then…please break my heart as soon as possible.

Make it impossible to think about anything. Make me forget everything.

I don’t want to protect people. My parents who sold me out, the knights who hurt me, and the great people who see me as nothing more than a tool.

Why should I protect them?

I can’t kill a demon tribe I don’t even know well with this kind of feeling. But if I can’t do it, I’m sure I’ll suffer worse than death.

That’s why I want to break down as soon as possible.

Let me quickly become a doll that can’t think about anything.

AN: In case you are wondering, the hero is only five years old.

I wrote this in the simplest language I could, but please bear with me when I say things that don’t sound like a five-year-old.

I don’t know anything about a 5-year-old’s vocabulary…

And the title…

In addition to the current title,「Reincarnated Vampire Princess and Former Hero, Trample Over Mankind 」,

「And they will be a disaster」, like so

I’ve been thinking about「Diary of a Reincarnated Vampire Princess and a Former Hero’s Extermination of Mankind」, but I haven’t decided on anything yet. What should I do?