CH 79

Chapter 79: Like

When Lu Shi came back, Chang Qing knew that he was hostile to him, so he usually detoured whenever he could to avoid meeting Lu Shi.

It’s just that going on like this wasn’t an option. Chang Qing thought about it and planned to move out.

He found a time to notify Lu Zheng and started packing his luggage.

Lu Zheng didn’t have any plans at first, but when he heard that Chang Qing was going to move out, he finally couldn’t bear it anymore and asked him: “You’re moving out and don’t plan to come back?

Chang Qing considered his words carefully and answered, “It depends. I really should live alone so as to avoid any trouble.”

Trouble, where did the trouble come from? Lu Zheng became irritated and asked, “What kind of home will it be if you live there by yourself?”

Chang Qing was silent for a while and then said, “I alone can make both of you unhappy. Won’t I make you both uncomfortable if I don’t move out?”

Lu Zheng didn’t say anything. Chang Qing heard his breathing and said calmly, “Lu Shi hates me. He won’t be able to change his mind for a while. He just had an abortion, so he shouldn’t get angry easily. It’s for the best if I leave.”

Lu Zheng still didn’t speak. Chang Qing hesitated, “Then I’ll hang up?”

Lu Zheng finally said, “Wait.”

Chang Qing asked, “Is there anything else?”

After he finished speaking he could only hear Lu Zheng’s breathing which seemed to be a little hurried, and after a while, he said, “Don’t take what I said the other day to heart, I was the one who was too extreme.”

Chang Qing hesitated for a moment, “I didn’t take it to heart.”

Lu Zheng’s voice was a little hoarse. “You should move away. We shouldn’t meet. Chang Qing, my feelings for you are different now.” He paused for a moment before saying, “You know that, don’t you?”

Chang Qing’s heart skipped a beat, but he didn’t say a word.

Lu Zheng said, “I’ve been avoiding you. What I said that day was to make myself feel better, so I wronged you for no reason.”

Hearing his hoarse voice, Chang Qing felt something was wrong, “What’s the matter with you? Are you drunk?”

Lu Zheng smiled and said, “I’m not drunk, I just feel a little uncomfortable.”

Chang Qing paused, “Where are you?”

Lu Zheng was silent for a moment, “In the office.”

Chang Qing put on his coat and said to Lu Zheng, “I’m coming to find you.”

Lu Zheng said in a low voice, “If you want to move, move as soon as possible. I don’t want to see you anymore.”

Hearing his hoarse and weak voice, Chang Qing said softly, “I’ll come to you. I’ll leave once I see you.”

Lu Zheng didn’t answer. Chang Qing hung up the phone, and called Ah Jian to ask him to send him to the Lu Group.

It was only three o’clock in the afternoon, and there were few people on the road. It took Chang Qing a short time to get to the door of the company.

The front desk probably recognized him, so they didn’t say anything. She called Lu Zheng’s office, and after getting a positive reply, asked someone to take Chang Qing up.

Chang Qing arrived outside Lu Zheng’s office, pushed open the door, and saw Lu Zheng.

Lu Zheng was leaning on the sofa when he heard the sound of the door opening. He opened his eyes and looked at Chang Qing. His lips moved but nothing came out..

Chang Qing carefully looked at Lu Zheng’s face. He didn’t look drunk. He reached out again. Lu Zheng grabbed his hand before he made contact and whispered, “What are you doing?”

Chang Qing paused for a moment then put his hand on Lu Zheng’s head. It was indeed hot. He frowned and told Zheng, “Don’t you know you have a fever?”

Lu Zheng’s eyes widened slightly., “Fever?”

Chang Qing said: “I thought it was strange how you were suddenly talking so much. If you’re not drunk then you must be sick. It seems I guessed right.”

Lu Zheng: “…”

Chang Qing sent a message to Ah Jian, asking him to buy cold medicine and anti-fever medicine. Then he put down his phone, and went to check on him again, “You go back to bed and rest, sweat out the fever.”

Lu Zheng didn’t move. He glanced at Chang Qing, and then quickly looked away, “What I said was true, not nonsense.”

Chang Qing knew that he had already understood Lu Zheng’s thoughts. He fell silent and after a while said, “You have a fever now. We can talk about it later.”

As he spoke, he pulled Lu Zheng’s arm, “Go to bed now and cover yourself with a quilt.”

Lu Zheng suddenly became angry and his tone was a little more serious. “Aren’t you afraid of me?”

Seeing that he refused to get up, Chang Qing felt a little helpless, “Afraid of you for what? What is there about you that I should be afraid of?”

Lu Zheng stared at Chang Qing’s face with his long, narrow and beautiful eyes, and said, “I have other thoughts about you. Aren’t you afraid?”

Chang Qing hesitated, and said: “…Maybe it’s just your illusion.”

“An illusion? I know whether it’s an illusion or not.” Lu Zheng was like a child at that moment. His eyes were watery and he mumbled, “How can it be an illusion? I want to kiss you. I want to hug you. How can it be an illusion?”

Chang Qing blushed, and whispered: “Stop talking.”

Lu Zheng shook his head with a heavy expression. “I know I’m wrong. Anyone else would be fine, but it’s you… just treat it as an illusion.”

Chang Qing didn’t speak.

Although neither of them spoke again, the atmosphere changed quietly

Lu Zheng’s gaze fell on Chang Qing. Now that the weather was getting cold, he was wearing a lot of clothes. He had a thick sweater and a coat on. He even wore a scarf. The scarf was red. He had learned to knit and had knit it himself. Even Lu Zheng had a scarf, but Lu Zheng’s has been hanging in the closet and he has never used it.

Chang Qing’s skin was as white as snow and it was set off by the red scarf, even his lips were red. Lu Zheng’s eyes just fell on Chang Qing’s lips.

Chang Qing also felt his gaze. He lowered his eyes slightly and said softly, “Don’t have any burdens. We’ll talk about these other things after you recover.”

Lu Zheng’s tone was light, as weightless as a feather, “I’m wide awake now.”

Chang Qing raised his eyes and looked at Lu Zheng’s face. When he heard Lu Zheng say “I want to kiss you,” his face began to burn, and it hasn’t receded until now.

Lu Zheng just said it without much thought. It was strange that he reacted so strongly. Was he that uncomfortable with the teasing?

Before Lu Zheng made this idea clear, their relationship was quite cold. Now that it was clear, it was estimated that it was even more difficult to say anything.

When Chang Qing thought of this possibility. He also had some indescribable feeling of depression in his heart.

He always regarded Lu Zheng as a real family member. Even if he didn’t have that kind of thought, if he wanted to stay away, it would indeed make him feel sad for a while.

Ah Jian brought the medicine up. Chang Qing soaked the cold medicine and stirred it with a spoon. In the rolling heat, Chang Qing looked up at him, “Drink the medicine.”

Lu Zheng paused for a moment, took the cup, lowered his eyes and drank a mouthful of cold medicine.

He didn’t seem to like to drink medicine, and when he did, he frowned and looked very unhappy.

Chang Qing waited for him to finish drinking the medicine, then stretched out his hand to touch his forehead and said, “This is a high fever, don’t burn your brain out.”

Lu Zheng groaned, “If I burn out my brain and become a fool, I might not be so tired.”

Chang Qing paused, looked at his face, and asked softly, “Are you tired?”

Lu Zheng spread out on the sofa, closed his eyes, and murmured, “Tired, I don’t know why I’m so tired.”

Chang Qing said: “Then you have a good rest, remember to go back to bed and cover yourself with a quilt. If not, have someone take you to the hospital.”

As he spoke, he got up to leave, but Lu Zheng grabbed his clothes, “Are you leaving?”

Chang Qing hesitated for a moment, “Otherwise? Do you want me to accompany you?”

Lu Zheng didn’t say anything.

Chang Qing pulled back his clothes and whispered, “Have a good rest.”

Lu Zheng said, “Wait, since you are going to move out, please accompany me one last time.”

Chang Qing stammered: “You’re speaking as if we’ll never see each other again.”

Lu Zheng looked at his face, his watery eyes focused, there was a certain degree of seriousness and concentration.

Chang Qing touched his face, and asked softly, “What are you looking at?”

Lu Zheng said nonchalantly, “I didn’t think so before, but now I look at you and think you look good everywhere.”

Chang Qing: “…”

His face heated up again. “Are you praising me or belittling me?”

Lu Zheng shook his head and said faintly, “I’m praising you. My brother has a good eye. I misjudged him.”

Lu Xuan’s name was taboo between the two. The heat on Chang Qing’s face subsided a lot. He looked into Lu Zheng’s eyes and said, “It’s good that you know.”

Lu Zheng said, “I’ve let down my elder brother. Just by having this thought, I’m already letting him down.”

Chang Qing didn’t say anything. At that moment, he felt that Lu Zheng was in a state where he had been suppressing his feelings for a long time and wanted to talk to someone. He had a fever now, and his mind probably wasn’t clear. He didn’t know how much he would regret it when he sobered up.

But after listening to him say these words, Chang Qing was in an indescribable mood. There was a sort of throbbing which made his mood messy but he also felt a feeling of fullness.

Lu Zheng didn’t continue to say anything. Chang Qing asked him to go to bed and sleep, Lu Zheng also got up and went into the lounge.

Chang Qing didn’t accompany him anymore. He didn’t know what else he would say if he stayed with him any longer.

On this day, when the weather turned cold, he quietly moved house. The apartment he rented wasn’t far from Lu Hua’s school. If Lu Hua wanted to see him, she could come over anytime.

Chang Qing also resigned from his job at Tianxing but began to take up some work as a supporting model in disguise. Qiao Zhenran even assigned him an agent and an assistant.

He has the intention of cultivating him well, but Chang Qing had no ambitions, so he wasn’t very active in his new job.

It can’t be helped, he’s still not comfortable with other people’s eyes after all.

Lu Zheng didn’t contact Chang Qing after that day, but Chang Qing would think of his handsome face with his eyes closed under the light from time to time.

Sometimes, people’s feelings are so strange. When no one pierced a hole in the window paper, you could pretend not to know anything. But once the layer of paper was pierced it’s like you’ve walked into a dead end and can’t get out.

Just like Chang Qing at this moment. When he was being blamed by Lu Zheng, he knew in his heart that although he felt it was a little absurd and unbelievable, he still felt that it was okay. He could still pretend to be deaf and dumb.

As soon as Lu Zheng explained clearly, Chang Qing’s mood became strange.

There was a kind of itchy feeling like his heart, liver and lungs were being teased by feathers. His mood was also light and fluttering like none of this was quite real.

Chang Qing was a bit uncomfortable. He wasn’t the kind of person who would immediately respond to someone who liked him with the same feeling.

Sometimes this kind of mood depends on the attraction between people. Just like how Qiao Zhenran felt towards him but he could still be focused and unaffected by him.

But Lu Zheng…for him, it was an unbelievable thing, but it also unexpectedly caused ripples in his heart.

That shouldn’t be the case either. His attitude towards Lu Zheng was frank and open at the beginning, but now because of just a few words all of his hard work has been broken. It’s really unreasonable.

Has he let Lu Xuan down? In the end, he fell in love with his younger brother, going the same way as the original owner.