Chapter 4

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Chapter 4

But there wasn’t even the slightest hint of playfulness on the old woman’s face. On the contrary, she seriously contorted her face and rushed to look at me.

“Oof, there are many cases of death after giving birth, but memory loss might be better.”

“Giving birth? Memory loss, what are you talking about?”

The lady looked at me still with a lost face, and then she suddenly walked out of the room.

Soon after, the lady returned again with the child I had seen once being held in her arms.

“Why, why are you doing this!”

The lady pulled my arm forcibly. I was startled and tried to pull my arm out of her grasp, but I couldn’t resist the lady’s strength.

She forced me to hold the child wrapped in white cloth.

I looked at the child with a puzzled look.

“She is the Miss’ child. Don’t you remember anything?”

A huge shock followed, as if I had been hit in the head with a hammer. My mouth opened wide, but nothing came out.

My hand holding the child was like a pale, bloodless corpse.

I looked at the child with a bewildered look.

“Tsk. Robin brought me a pregnant woman, lying in front of my house without shoes on. The child’s father’s face or name…… Nothing comes to mind?”

“N…… .No, I…… I’ve never kissed a man once, no, I never…… had a boyfriend, so what kind of child? I can’t have a baby unless I’m hermaphrodite.”

“It’s okay, it’s okay. Take a good rest and your memories will come back soon.”

The big, warm hand patted my back. But it was nothing consoling for me.

I thought that when I opened my eyes, a brilliant study abroad life would unfold, but who would have thought that a child would be born so suddenly!

It was so absurd that I couldn’t even shed a tear.

What the hell am I supposed to do with this child when I have no memories of being embraced or having given birth?

No, what’s harder to believe than that…….

“News, newspaper…… Show me the newspaper today!”

“Oh no no! What if you let go of the child like that!”

I was startled by the sudden exclamation. I awkwardly hugged the child I had reflexively laid down on the bed.

The red, wrinkled child had changed quite a bit within a week. The white, plump cheeks looked as soft as milk, and when the tightly closed eyelids lifted, the blue and innocent eyes were revealed.

My pale, tired face was reflected in the clear marble-like eyes.

Not startled by the lady’s loud voice, the child rolled its wide eyes.

“If you can’t hold it, give it to me.”

Even when the child left my arms, I did not feel any regret. Rather, it felt as if the burden that had been weighing on me had disappeared.

“There is no newspaper today. Once a week, whenever Robin goes down to town, he brings a week’s worth of newspaper. Do you want the newspaper from two days ago?”

“Yes, anything is fine.”

“Robin! Bring some newspapers!”

I heard the floor pounding in haste, and an old man called ‘Robin’ came up with a newspaper under his arms.

I took it coldly.

「Nelica Travel Daily News – December 02, Year 709 Crovatium calendar

From the end of this month, access to the Temple of St. Hasniel is restricted.

This is because pagan terrorism occurred frequently after the decree issued by Pope Hertantine. The dazzling sight of the snow flowers surrounding the Temple of St. Hasniel, which can only be seen in winter, is unlikely to be seen this year. There is another hidden place where you can see the snow flowers. The North Continent’s …..」

“709, 709, 709…….”

I cast my eyes over and over at the letters that could not be changed just by staring at them.

I opened all the other newspapers. Only the date changed, but unfortunately, the year did not change.

I put down the newspaper I was holding in vain.

“Nonsense…… I, I am twenty-six?”

The confusion did not go away easily.

No matter how hard I tried to deny it, my reality did not change like the year of the newspaper that did not change.

I turned from sixteen to twenty six overnight, giving birth to a child I never had.

It has been a month since I turned twenty-six.

Time passed as fast as light. The year had changed and it was now the Year 710 Crovatium calendar.

My mind was in a mess, but within a month my body was almost completely healed. Even after the pain in the perineum subsided, it took a long time to go out of the house.

The place where I was staying was in the middle of a mountain thick with tall trees.

The couple who took care of me said they were mountain keepers. The names were Mildred and Robin.

On a night when the autumn rain fell like a summer monsoon, Mildred brought me who had fallen down in front of this hut.

Why was I…… lying in front of this place while in full term?

This was not the capital of Crovatium where I was staying, nor was it the southernmost point where I had to go by boat.

Why…….

I needed to clear my confused mind. I looked at the scattered puzzles that did not fit, without forcing them to fit together. Crying, screaming and making a fuss didn’t solve anything.

I had to find clues one by one and complete the puzzle.

However…… In one day, I came across this bizarre phenomenon of passing 10 years of time overnight…… The child I gave birth to was absolutely…….

“Ahh-.So cute. Do you like your mother that much?”

“…… Are you sure I’m the mother?”

“Because I pulled it out from between the Miss’ legs, yes.”

Mildred rolled the little child like a bun in a pink blanket and held it in her arms and wouldn’t let it go.

I sat down on the bed and looked at Mildred suspiciously.

“It’s not just what I’m saying, it’s because it’s really, really, really weird. I’ve never held a man’s hand once in my life. So, something like this would be possible. It would be something like God had impregnated my pure and noble body.”

“You’re talking nonsense. Come on, look. It’s the color of your hair and eyes.”

“…….”

Mildred held the child in her arms close to me. The silver hair and clear blue eyes that glittered in the light were uncomfortably dazzling.

It was really like mine.

I quickly turned my gaze away and looked at Mildred.

“Your memory just stopped when I was 16. Don’t you know anything? You must have been passionately in love with a handsome man in the past 10 years.”

“Sigh…… That’s really ridiculous. I didn’t even think about getting married, let alone dating. I was going to study abroad in Temblan and study medicine. I will publish a medicine book with my name on it. It would be detailed and professional enough to be called the bible of the medicinal world. I will become the youngest professor of the Royal Academy, raise students, and then become a royal adviser and make my name known widely.”

“That must be boring.”

Mildred froze as she listened to my story, unable to take her eyes off the child. She said it’s the first time she’s ever seen such a gentle child, and she gently stroked the cheek, saying that it’s strange that the child doesn’t cry for fear of waking up the mother at night.

“…… No matter how much I think about it, it cannot be my child.”

“Again, that nonsense. Even when a child is young, it understands everything people say.”

“…….”

I stared at the child with a sullen face.

If you’re really the child that came out of my stomach…… Who the hell is your father?

There must be someone who I can guess, but there was no one that came to my mind as I lived a life more pure than the priest at the temple, who considered dating a taboo.

This should be the case, but I have to go back to the mansion first. My body had fully recovered, so I would be able to endure the boat ride for two to three days.

However, as soon as I was able to strengthen my will, a problem occurred that grabbed my ankle.

I held the wet dressing gown tightly so that it did not touch my chest. As I stared at my swollen chest, all kinds of beautiful words rushed out from the bottom of my throat.

This f*****g breast milk!

As it was a natural occurrence, my sadness rose.

What sins did I commit in my previous life, how did I become a single mother overnight? If my parents knew, they would grab the back of their neck and pass out…….

“Uhh…… mom…….”

In an instant, the tip of my nose became hot and the fever around my eyes rose.

At that moment, I heard the door open behind me.

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