Chapter 343

To:

Dear

when you see this letter, I have left the world and gone to another place without you.

Life as a soldier, death as the soul of the army, soldiers and horses roar, gold drum shock, strong men forget their lives, don't cry because of my death, people will die, but sooner or later, I have completed my mission, take a step first, and you must walk the rest of your life firmly.

I admit that I am very selfish, I guard the mission with my life, but I can't stay one more day to guard you. I dedicate my blood to the mission, but I leave the sadness to you.

It's an order that you forget me and spend the rest of your life happily.

Are you surprised that I, who am obedient to you, will use the word command to you in such a tough tone?

This is the original me, Yu Changmo, who you have never really known.

At the end of my life, I will tear off the mask of hypocrisy and stop being a gentle lover in your eyes. I want to tell you that I did not fall in love with you at first sight, did not like you, never.

September rose in full bloom, you look back at me in the rose fragrance, before you appear, the world to me is just a black branch, you appear with bud bud, my world because of your existence has a different color.

But it wasn't love at first sight.

I heard someone call your name, Chen Qianmo, very familiar.

I'm not surprised, because your eyes are still as transparent as an hour.

It's you, the little sister I've been looking for.

I held you when I was eight years old. If it was love at first sight, I had fallen in love with you since then. Why wait until now? So, I didn't fall in love with you at first sight.

I admit that you are very beautiful, where there are you, all women will be eclipsed, but your stubborn personality has touched me far more than your excellent appearance.

You are contradictory, you are awkward, you are full of exclusion to the world, and your eyes are full of loneliness. My mother classified you, who was born in a happy family and loved but still awkward, as "affectation". I never find your affectation very interesting.

Because, behind every coquettish woman, there must be a man who loves her.

It's not an interesting thing for me, it's heavy.

What makes your originally carefree eyes more lonely, and what makes you so indifferent to the world, to borrow your lines to say a word, I pinch a finger to calculate, your life is short of me.

I don't like you, never. because I love you.

I don't think your soul is interesting, because it makes my heart ache.

It has never been love at first sight, because the so-called love at first sight is just to find the person who is destined to be, that's all.

Meet you in hundreds of millions of people, in the hundreds of millions of souls, choose the most suitable one for yourself, not necessarily the best, but certainly the most suitable for me.

It's you, it's you, Chen Qianmo, my little darling, dry your tears and go on.

Don't feel that my life is too short. Some people have beautiful appearance and no true feelings. I am much happier than them.

Do what I like, have a complete faith and goal, find the most suitable woman in the world, have the most magnificent love, pay for what I love, life is enough, until the moment I close my eyes, I am worthy of my life, such happiness, such boldness, I surpass the vast majority of men in the world.

I really hope that I can come back alive, so that I can brazenly ask you to give me 10 years of time, I use this 10 years in the most suitable position for me to cultivate more suitable talents for my beloved motherland, during this period, I will not have so much time to accompany you, I will take root in the army to realize my favorite ideal, I will leave the first 35 years of my life to my beloved parents and me Work and mission, and then all the time for the rest of your life, for your loved ones.

I want to have a courtyard that belongs to you and me. I want to have two children like you and me. We have a cat and a dog. Our cat's name is Snoopy, and our dog's name is Kitty. We'll plant colorful roses for you, half flower arrangement and half bath for you.

When you come back in your favorite uniform, I'll give you a hug, listen to your joy, anger and sorrow of the day, and share your fatigue for you.

I will be filial to your parents, so do you. We take our children home every weekend.

When you and I retire, drive my big G, take you and our cats and dogs, leave the children to watch the house, we go out for a walk, and see how magnificent the great rivers and mountains you and I guard are.

No matter how hard or sad I am leaving you, I will order you to forget the sadness at this moment and start from the next second to love, struggle and be yourself.

If you have ever loved me, just give me a smile and promise to finish the task.

I am willing to love this world for you, and I also hope you can open your heart for me, looking for all the beautiful and nostalgic existence.

I hope to use my warmth to wake up your never cold, just temporarily sleeping heart, so that you can freely embrace the people you like and do what you like.I hope you can love yourself and your career as I do. Don't give up being a policeman because of my sacrifice.

You really love the police. From the moment you were in a daze at the police badge, I knew you liked it and you always liked it.

It's just that you always refuse to admit that you have to force yourself to be an indifferent and selfish person, but I know that you are not.

You've never been.

If the sufferings of life cover up your heart of loving the world, I would like to do the dust and restore you to the innocence when we first met.

If I sacrifice carelessly, you will realize my wish for me, love yourself for me, take care of yourself for me, and let your sad and lonely heart beat happily again for me.

After reading this letter, I order you to forget me and burn all the memories I bring to you. When I have never appeared in this world, you are not allowed to cry in every day without me, and you are not allowed to feel miserable when you think of me. This is the order.

If one day, you meet a man who loves you, and you don't reject him, you will form a family with him, have a few children, and continue to live happily.

Don't be afraid that I will be jealous. If you are happy, I will be happy in another world.

I am just selfish. Although I allow someone to take care of you when I am away, I still greedily ask you to be buried with me after your whole life. No matter how many people you have experienced after me, I hope that the person who will accompany you to sleep underground will be me.

If there is a soul in the world, if you don't come, I won't go. I'll be waiting for you in another world all the time. No matter for decades, I'll wait for you. When you've finished your life, I'll take you with me.

But if you dare to commit suicide, or lose the ability to love the world, I will not see you when you come.

I have used my life to love and care for the girl, no one can hurt, including yourself.

Do what you say.

May you have me for the rest of your life and I'll be full of joy.

May you love yourself as much as I love you.

Yu Changmo's writing was finished.