Chapter 47.2

I wanted him to be hurt as much as I had been, but it may be because of the dream I had today that I was not that happy to see him that sad.

Oh, is it true that I’m hopeless at times like this?

In fact, all the time I dated other men, I realized that Gerald was always exceptional and incomparable to anyone.

This guy’s got less of this than him.

This man is shorter than Gerald. And this guy! He’s this short of Gerald.

I used to be surprised when I thought about this. Even I couldn’t get over him as time went by. But I decided to ignore it.

But even that was already very annoying.

Even now, I wondered what he would say to me.

Do you want to hold me?

Or should I push him away again?

I know that Gerald and I have experienced different things now, but I wondered what choice Gerald, the one in front of me, would make.

“Gerald, do you want to say something?”

I was waiting for Gerald’s answer.

I heard an urgent answer. It was completely different from the sound of Alexid’s horseshoe coming to my rescue yesterday. Gerald turned towards Leander’s gate.

It appeared that the loud sound I was hearing was in my chest, not on the ground.

My heart thumped.

The red flag was clearly visible from afar.

My heart was already in an urgent state.

“Let’s go, Lulu.”

Gerald reached out his hand towards me. The knight was wearing a cape with a Leander pattern on it. It was a messenger from where my dad was.

I nodded and held Gerald’s hand. Anxiety filled me.

When I ran to the front door with Gerald, people were already buzzing together.

The knight climbed down from the horse and knelt down in front of my mother.

“The Grand Duke has fallen! The doctor had already diagnosed him. The disease is called Nisephor! A message was already sent for the doctor on standby and to be ready in the mansion.”

At that moment, Gerald and I met gazes. I said in a suppressed voice, holding Gerald’s hand.

“Gerald, please bring Billiers. You can do that, right? You know what I’m talking about, right?”

“Yes.”

Gerald hesitated and pulled my hand. A soft sensation touched my forehead.

Gerald, who glanced at me for the last time, left the mansion in a carriage, contrary to the expectations of the knight that had just arrived.

Alexid was helping our mother who was on the verge of collapsing. I felt like the world was turning black.

I knew it, and I’ve been preparing for this moment, and yet I couldn’t shake off my fear. It must be because I had suffered and had seen my father’s death once already.

It’s okay, Lulu.

You did it.

I’m already prepared this time.

It’s just that the timing was certainly unpredictable.

“Butler. Send someone to bring your aunt. Please explain the situation and ask them to bring some herbs.”

“Yes, ma’am.”

I didn’t know if my voice came out well. I’m quite sure that my voice trembled without me knowing it. Mom and Alexid may not be prepared for what is happening right now, but I already am.

So I have to do it.

“And the maid. Clean up the mansion and keep the number of people arriving here to a minimum. The rest of us will move to a separate house and leave the minimum number of people in the main house.”

“Yes, ma’am.”

Alexid’s eyes were shaking terribly as he looked back at me. It reminded me of the Alexid, who cried on the day our father died, in the past.

I shook my head softly as I looked at Alexid.

‘It’s gonna be okay.’

Do you understand my whisper? Alexid smiled faintly. Then he lifted our mother and guided her to stand up.

“I’ll go lay our mother down. Lulu.”

“Yes, do that. I’m fine.”

I patted Alexid on the arm.

Alexid went upstairs and I ran into my room. The medicine that Billiers brought me would be in my room. It was necessary.

I felt relieved when I held it in my hand. The medicine given by Billiers was well kept in the place I gave him. I held it in my hand.

My heart, which was beating like crazy, seems to be stabilizing a little.

‘I can’t lose anyone this time.’

I remember my Dad’s touch as he patted my head. The sweet voice that calls my name. The warm expression that smiled at me. The most reliable embrace that protects me.

I’m not going to lose it.

Not yet.

I found a small bag, put the medicine in it, and hung it around my neck.

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