Li Jinnian was very satisfied with the answer. His handsome face and facial expressions softened a little. "It's best if you go home separately. I'll go home with my cousin while you go back to the old residence alone. Tell your family that you're safe and don't let them worry.
"The two of you are only in a relationship now, and it's a relationship that can't be exposed. You need to go to each other's houses less."
"You're right. We should be careful. When we get married in the future, we won't have to worry anymore." Xia Jinyuan, who already knew the situation, sighed silently. His cousin-in-law was still very difficult to deal with!
At the mention of marriage, Li Jinnian pondered for a moment. There was a hint of confusion in his cold voice. "Have you always had plans to get married?"
"Before I met Ye Jian, I never thought that I would consider getting married." Xia Jinyuan shook his head. He, who was usually calm, was a little depressed. "I never thought of getting married at all.
"Before I met Ye Jian, I always thought that I was a little different from the rest. Love was just a pile of trash in my eyes. Instead of wasting time with a woman, I might as well hug my gun to sleep. It'd be more meaningful!"
At this point, Li Jinnian found resonance and nodded very lightly.
Seeing this, Xia Jinyuan raised an eyebrow and asked with a smile, "Why do I think that you have the same thoughts as I did previously?"
"You're right. I've never thought of getting married, nor have I thought of having a girlfriend by my side," Li Jinnian admitted calmly. "You met my cousin, so you changed your mind. I'm still the same.
"Why did you never think of getting married in the past?"
Xia Jinyuan narrowed his dark eyes and thought for a while before answering, "I went through some things when I was ten years old. The year I set my goal, I knew that my life would be full of guns and bullets. It's uncertain if I'll even be able to survive through the years.
"It's also possible that I'll go to the battlefield and return in a coffin with the flag of our country.
"I thought that since soldiers like us might have short lives, why would we waste time dating and having sex with women we weren't familiar with at all?
"What if I left behind children in this world but died early? Not only would I implicate others, but I'd also make a woman cry for nothing.
"I once saw the wife of a martyr take her husband's urn with my own eyes. The despair in her eyes made it difficult for me to forget about it for a long time. I'd even wake up at night thinking about it."
This feeling… Li Jinnian understood it deeply.
"I'm about the same as you. I wasn't so resistant to marriage in the past. What really makes me feel that marriage isn't just for me is that… My situation is similar to yours. My sister-in-law came to collect the body of my comrade but fainted on the plane. On the way to the military unit after getting off the plane, she fainted again from crying. When she saw my comrade lying motionless in the sea of flowers… she fainted again… All while carrying a child."
They were all soldiers who had seen too many sacrifices. Every sacrifice was unacceptable to them. What was even more unacceptable was… when it involved the parents, wives, and young children of their comrades.
Every time they saw it, they would be so sad that they would vent their anger on the training ground until the last bit of their strength was exhausted. Their muscles would completely stop working before they lay on the training ground. They would stare at the sky with their eyes wide open. They would stare… until tears came out of their eyes.
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