Chapter 111 Past Memories: Time & Space IV

Toki disappeared the next second, this wasn't someone he could bear to face, there were endless timelines coiling around Constantine and attacking right now when there was Nova watching wasn't a wise move.

"As expected..." Nova said, crestfallen, the moment her husband disappeared.

"Don't feel bad..." Isabella/Nova said, staggering to stand up and approaching her, what she didn't hope for had eventually happened, both Novas from different timelines regarded one another, one with her whole self, one from inside Isabella's body.

"We shouldn't have seen one another, me. I have been watching you all along, the moment you arrived, I knew." The 'local' Nova felt her shoulder be tapped and sighed, taking Isabella into a deep embrace.

Two entities from different timelines colliding, especially existences such as themselves was bound to cause irreparable damage to an entire timeline, but in their case, a single timeline wasn't that important.

Her entire existence extended across endless timelines, but there was only one such where Nova and Isabella were the same, at least that's how it was supposed to be, but she made a mistake.

"I'm sorry for the trouble, me... he discovered it."

"You have caused a lot of trouble." Nova spoke coldly.

"..." Isabella could only evade her gaze in shame, she was aware this was going to happen, but she still did it, and she didn't regret it.

"You created a paradox, my power is draining as countless timelines are being created every second... when Isabella dies, we get her away from the path of death in order to get more knowledge about Constantine, deciding to leap back in time as the process repeats endlessly, draining our power and turning us weaker."

"..."

"In a few millions of years, we will be weaker than Toki... that being said, me... what should we do?" The primordial goddess released Isabella (Nova) and asked for her opinion.

"Will you heed my advice?" She knew she made a mistake, if her other self wanted to act independently she was in her right to do so, they were supposed to be the same and hence, take the same decisions, but she was no longer the same Nova, forty years of experiences as Isabella had changed her.

"You who have come to understand mortal feelings and have finally achieved the primal state... are stronger than me, you are loved and feel love."

"... You are loved too."

"I am not... he just left." The Goddess wanted to sob but there were no tears, she was experiencing a pain that Nova knew all too well, she experienced it too.

"That love is not worth it... we can have so much more. We are loved here, me." She showed her everyone in the room, her most important people.

"It will create a paradox."

"We can break the paradox."

"..." Nova looked at herself in confusion, how exactly will they stop the Paradox without sacrifices? that was the problem, there would be a sacrifice.

"When Isabella... when I die... I'll seal my entire being, memories and comprehension of love in her soul... take her away from the reapers as I did, but instead of leaping back in time to understand love... unseal my memories and comprehend everything I experienced... that way you can seal the paradox and we will have the same result."

"But you will cease to exist as the Paradox is directly tied to you... all of your power in your timeline will also disperse since your soul won't go back after you finish the experience." Nova didn't want that, she believed this 'Nova' who had learned what true love is, was the most valuable of her counterparts

"I don't need to exist... me, you don't understand. these forty years have been the happiest of my entire life~" She giggled and looked at her children who were now being embraced by her man, there was a no bigger joy compared to this.

Nova sighed, her powers rotated and fixed the damage caused by the explosion, cracks were repaired and the world went back to the way it was supposed to be, if she didn't do this, then once time returned to its standard, the cracks would obliterate this world and everyone living in it.

"Even more... than what we have lived?" She asked, not able to understand 'herself' could make such an infatuated face, it was so foreign...

"Yes, more than all those billions of years... now it is your turn."

"He's only a mortal... I'm a High-Goddess, we can't- m-moreover he's my daughter's-"

"It doesn't matter... you can all share~ sharing is such a beautiful thing, I'd delight if I could experience this with all my daughters but, I won't be around by the time they're all assembled with him." She sighed in sadness.

"..." The Goddess looked at her with a weird gaze, she really changed quite a bit.

"Do what he did... use Aurelianne's Life Spark... it will deter the reapers from hunting Isabella. He will undergo the trial, me... he's strong, he can reach us in the God Realm." Isabella/Nova spoke with a hundred per cent certainty.

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"Are you insane!?" For the first time, the goddess lost her composure the moment that name, Aurelianne was mentioned.

"No, I am not. We have kept our daughter's spark as if doing so will bring her back... her soul perished and Sandra might never forgive herself; our daughter... she deserves rest... use her spark. Give Isabella another chance and also, although you can't be together right away, you will know how to make do until he reaches us~" Nova spoke mysteriously with peace of sorts, she had come to terms with a lot of things.

Best

"You're telling me to go against my very existence."

"I'm telling you that it will be worth it."

"What must I do...? You know unlike him I can't involve myself in this world without directly obliterating it... if he hadn't created this barrier I wouldn't have been able to manifest myself."

"I'll keep my children safe from him... he might be a bastard but his word still holds value, just wait patiently. The day I die... you can take Isabella's soul and do as I said, the paradox will be broken and we can be happy." Isabella staggered before her arms embraced... herself.

Nova hugged back.

"I'm unable to comprehend your reasoning. Will you sacrifice yourself, for all of us? is he really that good? our son-in-law?"

By ending the paradox, she'd standardise all timelines in which she existed, rewriting those feelings in every single one of them, the cost... her own existence.

"Yes, this is what authentic love is like, me. I sacrifice myself because I love you, I love him, I love my children, I love my daughters, I love everyone... it feels so great to love, I can die in peace... I guess this is what the true purpose of the death path is, no wonder... most gods won't ever reach this, we're all so focused on our own faith and mission, that we miss this wonderful feeling."

"Does that mean you forgive Toki?"

"Yes, am I not doing the same? but... that doesn't mean I will let go of these feelings."

"There is no balance this way."

"There never was, but now... the balance inclines our way." She giggled, it was time to say their farewells, the barrier was starting to recede, bringing the universe back to normal, hence... Nova, the Goddess, wouldn't be able to stay much longer.

"I understand, I shall take my leave, me staying here won't be safe for your family."

"Our family~"

"Ours... I guess I'll understand later on~"

"Before you leave... I ask of you, after taking my entire self... please give him the blessing of spatial conduct, Toki will try something I know it, he won't completely uphold his words."

"Isn't that too powerful for him? you know we already gave that blessing away to someone else, he... he won't desist." The goddess spoke with guilt.

"I'm afraid Constantine is going to need it... me, he has to become a god and undergo the trial... to reach us, even our daughters won't accept him a mortal, once they regain their memories... they're going to struggle. as for 'him' you can let him chase us as much as he wants, he will be a nice stepping stone for my son~"

*Sigh!*

"You have changed so much, you don't care about Toki or 'him' at all, and you're also doing a lot of things that I don't understand... each of them threatening the universe's order... Love is a troublesome thing for us."

"Love... waking up, breathing... going to the garden, taking out some flowers and planting them, talking with friends, working out, selling flowers and smiling... eating a nice barbecue amidst laughter, washing together, the water... looking at his beautiful paintings, my own happiness reflected in them, making lots of love and having reckless sex in a dark room, anywhere... engulfing oneself in debauchery for days without an end, kissing him, getting filled to the brim with cum by the person we love... a-anal sex~ giving birth to his children... with my body, not with my will, living as a mortal." She looked at her family in infatuation, further confusing this timeline's Nova.

"It is the best thing ever... I wholeheartedly hope that you can feel it for endless years with him, sadly... I only have a few dozen years left." Isabella blushed madly.

"Take care, me." The current Nova didn't understand, but she surely would, one day.

"You too, me."